Nur Shahira. ;p

My friends were listing out their nicknames, and what people usually call them. So, they came out with nicknames yg chomels. It seems fun.
Nak jugak lah. hee.

Nur Shahira Bt. Anuar.

Well, according to my parents, my name was given by dis one ustaz. Ustaz Saidon kot.( I dunt know how to spell it). Nur is Cahaya while Shahira is Masyhur.
Jadi, Nur Shahira adalah cahaya kemasyhuran. :D
fyi, i like my name. thank you.

You see, everytime i meet sumone new, when they ask me what should they call me, my answer will be the same answer, again and again. Call me whatever you want. Anythin ure comfortable with, will do. I really dont mind.
Entahhh. Dari dulu pon mcm ni. tak pernah nak suruh org panggil by specific names.
Mama always tells me to use shahira rather than other names. Sbb shahira ade makna. if we make it short or use other names, its no longer 'masyhur'. =)

Shahira is a common name though. tapi kann, I used to tell my friends back in pasum, I'd be very happy if people call me shahira. sbb dari dulu, people tend to call me with pelbagai nama, sbb shahira panjang, for them susah nak sebut or panggil. tak kisahla.
tapi sgtt impress if people spell my name correctly. teruja okay. sbb org slalu eja salah. with y la, plus h at the end and etc. haha. funny me.

These are what people normally call me:

Adik: family.
Berra: ya and sumtimes, faiz.
Bedik: also ya. I've no idea where dis word comes from. weirdo.
Shera: my subang friends. jaja was the first to call me that kot. lupe. tapi, form 2 lah.
Shira: ramai. from all over. tapi majority, my pasum friends.
Sherot: nina! the only one.
Sha: normally guys kot.
Ira: err, mostly guys jugak.
Shasha: I forgot. tapi adela.
Sherry: alyssa! my cellmate in pasum.
Shiro: asilah!
Genie: hijaz!
Alya(A2DC): The fabulous 5. Annis as cinta, aliah as maura, batch as milly, and na as carmen.
Caira: Shidot, aten.
Shirota:shifaa.

Funny thing, my friends in rcmp call me shahira. aint no other. pelik jugak. tapi, yeayness. :D
But sumhow, rindu pulak sume name tu.
Thats all kot. Will add more if ade. oh, btw, anyone wants to add more? ;)

sleepless night.

3. 02 a.m : I know im not okay. I'm sure i'm not okay. I cant get rid of it. It keeps on bothering me. whyy. please go away, will you?

Fikiran kusut. Jiwa kacau. Hati resah. Otak penat. Serabut.

I want to sleep like a lil-baby.
Nothin to think of, nothin to worry about.
But how is it possible for me?

Ya ALLAH, berikanlah aku kekuatan.
Hadirlah ke dalam segenap ruang hatiku.
Semoga hatiku tenang kembali dari segala keresahan dan kekusutan ini.
Amin.

denial.

One minute, im happy, the very next minute, im no longer happy. funny ey. How u can b happy in just a minute, and then, its all gone. Sumtimes we have to expect of the unexpected things. The prob wit me is I always expect or more to prepare for the worse. maybe for me, when I think of the worse, and when it actually happens, its not gonna be dat bad.
I do think a lot. Think and think deeply until my mind gets too tired. My friends know that. Often they tell me not to think too much and stop being super paranoid. Sumtimes, I tend to think of the unnecessary things, and it drives me nuts.

Today is not a good day though. Perasaan yg sgt serabut and kacau after sumthin happened. Not gonna elaborate more on that cuz its not sumthin to share wit other people kot. I guess I'll just keep it to myself. Anyway clah, thanks a lot. You really helped. I mean it dis time. Kt tak tau nak buat mcm mane kalau awk xde td. thanks yea. feeling much more better now. :D

Lately, im not being myself. too many distractions, I guess.
Shahira, please get back on the right track. please. stop being silly.


My sister texted me yesterday. After few msgs, she finally said this.
"I think I miss u la"
"Adik tak miss ya ke?"

And my lil bro, Adam calls me almost everyday asking me how am i doin, and etc.
Being Adam, everyone in the family knows that he's super egoistic. He wont call us without a reason.
"Adik, Adam tak boleh tido la. Adam boring"

to my only lil baby, stop being egoistic and please admit that u miss ur sister dearly. haha.
The truth is I'm missing all of you.
After exam adik balik k? :D

When you're sad, think of sumthin which can make you smile. I just did.
Goodbye Mr. Sorrow. I dont want you. I want my Mr. Joy, please. :D

luahan hati.

agdwwsdgywky. ;p

Last minute decision, I finally decided not to go home during dis short hols. menyambut deepavali in Ipoh. heh.


At first, I wasnt so sure whether I could survive well when everyone's leaving. I was so pathetic. Well, its not that im not independent or wat. But then, the thought that im gonna be lonely during dis short period of time is what bothers me the most.
To tell u the truth, I hate being left. Its the fear of being left. I'm not a lil-baby who always relies on other people, but I do admit I hate to be alone. I always need company. And I always need sumone to talk to.

Its only thursday n yet, dira, su, and tira already went home. So, only three of us left but the loneliness starts to sink in. aaaa.

Me: "Clah, mcm mane nih. baru jumaat, tapi kt mcm da depress n sedih gile tgk sume org balik. kt da start rase sgt sunyi n kosong hari ni. Mcm mane kt nak hidup lg brape hr? kt sgt tak suke perasaan ditinggalkan =((( "

Clah: " takpe, kt faham perasaan awk. maybe awk x biase lagi. nanti kt balik awal eh."

As day passes by, its not that bad afterall. And clah, u shud b really proud of me. kt berjaya survive dgn jayanya. Tahniah shahira. hoho. and raden, she drives me crazyy. kegilaan melanda kami berdua. and my favourite script everyday will be, "rumah ini kita yg punya". so, raden, we're free to do whatever we want kan kan? *evil laugh*

Evryday will be hari-yang-indah-bersama-raden, my one and only retard partner and roomie. and my mushy partner. also my partner in crime. we tend to do kerja-gila when the other hsmates are not around. Like today. At the end of the day, we became all mushy.

sweet lah konon kan.

p/s: clah, jgn jealous k? anda tetap terpahat di lubuk sanubari. ;p

Went out with raden the whole day n bought some stuffs.

Its a-love-at-a-first sight. chomel tak? I loike. hee. :D

and she bought a pair of shoes too.

Kami jatuh cinta dgn keychain ini. so, we bought em.


Wanted the red one at first, but finally chose the blue one. found it adorable. hee.

Sekian. =)

Jamuan Aidilfitri Phase I A

Event: Sambutan Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2008(Phase 1A)
Theme: Baju Raya
Venue: Kak Syikin's place
Date: 21/10/08
Time: 2.30-6.00 p.m


Things went well today. Alhamdulillah. Credits to those who organised the jamuan, especially to Miss Sarania. You did a great job. Well done. and also to evryone who came. terima kasih lah semua. It was a blast. I had a great time, and am pretty sure everyone did. =)

So, here are some pics:


The most hilarious part

Mastermind: Zahhar.
Akad-Nikah Session.

Majlis Selesai. =)

We have a quite complicated family tree. There are few families involved. Last2, sume pon mixed-up n its kinda confusing. eheh. but its okay, u go figure out urself k? =)

Kami bersame Abi(Najib) =)

My very own family.

Mummy, Daddy, Kak Long, Kak Ngah, Kak Chik, Kak Chu.
You tell me which is which. ;p

Walaupon fake, tetap chomel. :D

We are one. =)



Kaum Muslimat.

Kaum Muslimin.


Nasyid time conducted by Along. =)


Some of the crowd. =)



Some of the food.

Finally, my adorable housemates. =D

Akhir kata, syg anda semua.

Sesungguhnya, ukhuwwah itu indah. =)

A post with 'bercampur-baur' emotions and stories. heh.

Went to Rumah Perlindungan Pernim on the previous saturday for Jamuan Raya Bersama Anak-anak yatim. not gonna tell u the whole journey and what i did n yada yada yada.
The most important thing is, im so in-love with those kiddos n babies. *drools*
semua pon chomel lah.

I couldnt remember all the names, since there were too many of them, sampai dis one lil girl asyik ckp, "kakak, name die bukan ... lah, tapi ..."
dat was embarassing, tp xpela. agak susah nak ingat sume pon.

Basically, there are 2 kids dat I could remember the most. Murni and Daniel.
Daniel is one super duper hyperactive, mischievious and naughty lil baby. He's not afraid of stangers, really. As long as u dukung him everywhere u go, he's gonna love u. trust me.

and Murni, she's a sweet, innocent young girl. Never fails to put on a sweet smile on her innocent face. But she does look really weak. She suffers from HIV/AIDS and she doesnt has that many friends like others and yet, shes happy enough.
I just got to know from raden that according to doctor, she can only live within 3 days, but today, wit God's will, she's still breathing. Allah is Great.
Felt like crying the moment raden told me about her. She was so manja with me n shes such a sweety. Asyik teringat je. =(((

To Murni: be strong k? ull always b in my prayers, Insyaallah.

Here comes the part I love the most.
There were these two '1-year-old-aged-baby'. Again, forgot their names. Lets just say, Taufiq and Syamil.
Syamil was playing around, and he left his 'puting susu' on the carpet without realising it. So, Taufiq came n took it. When Syamil looked around, he found out dat it was with Taufiq. He wanted to take it, but Taufiq refused to give him, and innocently, he thought dat it was his. Syamil started to cry and cry, until dis one '5 years-old-aged-boy' came to rescue Syamil. eheh. With gentle n care, that particular boy dukung Syamil n brought him sumwhere else. Then, he came again n said dis to Taufiq affectionately.

"Taufiq, bg 'puting susu' ni dkt abg boleh? Nanti abg beli yg baru utk taufiq k"

Ya Allah, i was so speechless dat time. Sgt menakjubkan. And it was so touching.
How a responsible brother managed to take care of his adik-adik, when the fact dat they are not his flesh n blood.
You see,how independently they could act, because they are already
used to it. Its all about sharing. Its all about give-and-take. Its all about love.

am listening to A2DC sountrack. To : Cinta, Maura, Milly, Carmen, I miss all of youuuuu. =((

p/s: dunt blame me. blame the period. heh.

warna-warna riangg.

Merah, Jingga dan Merah Jambu adalah warna-warna kerianganku.

Juga adalah warna kekuatanku.

Warna-warna riang apabila bergabung menjadi satu,

maka itu adalah Shahira. teehee.

n suddenly it reminds me of papa's msg.

"Pelangi yg indah tu pun datang dgn membawa adik yg tersenyum riang"

cute, innit?

n papa once bought me dis one novel entitled pelangi.

papa saya adalah chomel.
yg terchomel sekali di dunia. :D

sygggg papa.
xoxo.

tag.

RULES:
Pick your birth month.
-Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you._
-Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you.
-Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months.
-Tag 5 people.

tagged by al.
mine will be May. so, here it goes.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted(stubborn is true, but not hard-hearted) Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. (im really nt sure abt dis. mayb sumtimes, it applies) Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. (and dis one too. u tell me. heh) Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally.(and dis one jugak. eheh) Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home.(dis is soooo NOT TRUE okay?) Restless.(well, it depends) Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.




JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves makingfriend s but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. NMAYeeds no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

PEOPLE I TAG:
-na
-batch
-pia
-mirul
-syam

there was dis seminar on 'carcinogenesis' held at BLT, but since clah n i were all restless during dat particular time, dis is wat we actually did. ;p

p/s: fyi, we did listen. tapi at the same time, we did the 'note-taking' jugak kan clah. dis is wat we call multitasking. ;;p


Page 2.




Page 1

it shud b more, but erased some.

and dis is what raden did:

A I ' N U L

A- A llah is in my heart always.

I- I ndependent

N-N aive

U-U nique

L-L ove ????

so, here comes the devil me, n clah too.

clah:

A- A silah

I- I s

N-N ice

U-U nbound

L- L ove

shahira:

A-A inul

I-I s

N-N ever

U-Unique yet the gedik-est

L-Loser.

;p

sorry raden. eheh.

oh btw, clah did dis for me. so shweet of you.

i asked her to do sumthin for me, and she came up wit dis.

but anyway, i loike it. teehee.

the more-pics-less-writing-post.

Place I Always Want To Go.

The Kampung Site and The Paddy Field.

The Things I Love.

the top in the list. the sound of waves is soothing.

the raindrops.

pretty rainbow. love em. a definitely turn-me-on for me.

Subhanallah

The Two Things That Make Me Happy When I'm Sad.

Number one.

Those kids, cant resist them. Sumthin about their innocent faces really melt me.

My heart smiles everytime i see them. =)

Number two .

These adorable creatures, they definitely make my day. =)

Dalam mencari ketenangan, these things are the therapies.

Bimbang(A2DC soundrack)


Pertama kali aku tergugah
Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap
Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan
Kata orang rindu itu indah
Namun bagiku ini menyiksa
Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu
Namun sulit ku membenci


Pejamkan mata bila kuingin bernafas lega
Dalam anganku aku berada disatu persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih
Ku peluk semua indah hidupku
Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus
Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa
Namun ada yang hilang separuh diriku


apparently, dis song has been stucked in my head for the past few days.
and apparently, dis is exactly wat i feel. hmm.

MEMORY:2003.

rain drops.

Pouring day after day soggy dark and gray yet warm hearts sunny smiles brightening my way.

=)

the rain drop is falling, and a girl sits next to the window, staring at the dark sky with deep thoughts.

hujan rintik-rintik.
call me the rain-lover, i am. god knows how much i lovee rains. calming cool effect on me.
for no specific reasons, i adore em. dunt ask me why, alryte.

i wanna live like dis forever, but there's no way it can stay forever.
things always come and go.
and when it rains, ull be my rainbow in the sky. =D
come wit me, and take my hand.
lets dance together in the pouring rain.

and everytime it rains, i tend to miss people i love.
dats the only thing i hate the most.
to miss sumone, is not a big deal though. sure.
but sometimes, it hurts so bad. sakit.
=(
=(
=(

I MISS youu.

happy birthdayy, sweets.

dis isnt a proper one. will write one later, since im in a rush. waiting for hyder and iylman to fetch me and bertolak to ipoh bersame2.

anyways, happy sweet 19th bday, annis natalia abdul hamed shah, the one and only bff.
i heart youu much much
as deep as ocean.
as high as mountains.
as much as the twinkling stars in the sky.

dann, sehingga infiniti.


sorry i cant celebrate wit u. =((


p/s: love you always.


trully, madly, deeply.
your bestfren.

kehilangan.

went to masjid today for maghrib prayer, and i realised sumthin..
there's a huge emptiness in here, deep down in my heart.
i feel empty. a total emptiness.
and i can feel a great LOSS.

i miss going to mosque during ramadhan.
i miss performing terawih evry nite.
i miss the feeling of warmth n the soothiness of ramadhan.
i miss the last 10 nights of ramadhan.
i miss searching for lailatul qadar
and i simply miss everythin about ramadhan.
bulan yg penuh keampunan dan kenikmatan Allah.

Ya ALLAH,
semoga aku diberi peluang utk bertemu dgn ramadhan mu lagi.
semoga ramadhan yg lalu memberi seribu pengertian buat diriku.
dan semoga ramadhan yg lalu adalah terbaik berbanding yg sebelumnya.
aku rindu akan kenikmatan ramadhan mu, ya ALLAH.
kenikmatan yg tidak dpt digambarkan dgn kata-kata.

sesungguhnya, pemergiannya adalah satu kehilangan besar buat diriku.

tiada motif.

ini adalah blog yg berunsurkan motif-less. hee.

the main mission for today:
tidy up the-super-duper-messy-room.
ever since i went to ipoh, dis room of mine is no longer alive. segala nyawa telah hilang.

it had gotten worse, since the wedding occasion.
dis is due to the fact dat evryone dumped in evry single thing in dat particular room.
so, as a result, hmm, well, im sure u can imagine urself.
the moment u step into dat room, u wish u would never enter dat room in the first place,
and never will again. haha.

so, wish me luck.
lets get it started.

goodbye.

the first post. =)

its 2.58 a.m, and i still keep myself awake due to some reasons which arent to b mentioned. heh.
needless to know, cuz they arent important.
ive got nothin much to say, really. at dis moment.

but anyways, i surely have something for you. yeah, its you.
courtesy of my own.


wishing u a good nyte sleep wit simple good nyte msg from me.

let the stars shine brightly, in the midst of the night.
let the stars dance joyfully, to brighten up the gloomy skies.
let the stars smile still, and watch upon you while ure sleeping.
till the break of dawn,
till the very next minute you open up ur eyes,
till the sun starts to rise and make the rest of ur day,
and till you watch the stars again,
shining beautifully in the soundless night,
they be with you.

so, there u go.
good night, YOU. dream of the sweetest dream tonight.