reminiscing the memories.

2007, Dewan Tunku Chanselor, Universiti Malaya(Orientation week);

"Hye, name awk ape? sy shahira, ni roomate sy"
with a pure innocent face, she smiled and replied, "sy aishah"
"awk duduk floor mane?"
"sy duduk tingkat 3, blook D"
"eh, samela kt, bilik no brape?" "307"


dats how it started. coincidentally, kt duduk satu floor kan? kt, 301, awk n mira, 307. then, since dat, start baik. pg lecture, mkn sume skali(dat time tak separate class lg). the day mira lost her hp which is a long story, remember makcik kerepek? we all got closer kan? as the time passed by, the real you revealed. mmg salah gle first impression towards awk? at least, not me alone yg fikir mcm tu kan? ahah. aishah, aishah.. definetely sumone who is very unique indeed, and unpredictable too. tp sbb perangai awk yg pelik tu lah yg lg bwat kt rapat. saying sumthin sweet to you is definetely pelik. being mushy wit you lagi laa tak. mcm geli kan? in fact, since kat pasum pon gune "daku anda", tak pon "wa, lu". tp dgn lu sorg je la mek. sbb lu satu2nye makhluk pelik yg wa pernah jumpe kat muka bumi ni. so, lets just proceed wit dis. wa dpt bygkan ur facial expression tatkala you read dis. mesti rase cam nak blasah wa kan, like u used to do back in pasum. tp too bad lah, lu jauh. ;p mek, sejak kt da terpisah antara 2 benua ni, da xde org melakukan keganasan terhadap wa, sbb lu xde. aman. tp kadang2 rindu gak. sbb lu sorg je suke bully wa mcm tu. kat pasum dulu pon, sume org kesian tgk wa asyik kene bully dgn lu, nasib kak emi suke back up wa. n nasib gak wa baikkk. heh. wa ingat lg dulu lu suke sgt cari gado dgn wa. wa pon x faham. tgk org lain mane ade lu bully. enggak fair dong. daku tidak faham anda.




you see, we've known each other only within short period of time. approximately a year. but it seems like i've known you since like forever. and the truth is, you're the only person who know me even more than i do. funny ay. mayb sbb first time in my life, i live wit sumone else, other than my very own family. even my subg friends yg dah knal for how many years pon, still don't discover many things about me. anda? sume baik buruk daku pon anda da tgk kan. heh. its simply because we lived together for a year. susah senang same2. jiwang lak daku. xpela, alang2 da jiwang, baik daku teruskan je.


i could still remember all those sweet and bitter moments we've gone thru together, i mean all of us back in pasum. but most of em were the sweet moments. but among all, you're the closest to me. sampai diorg pon panggil kembar. kembar x seiras, definetely but many similarities and the strong bond btwn us. di mane ade aishah, di situ ade shahira, or vice versa. heh. gado2 slalu pon, lu jugak yg wa cari. lu faham2 je wa kan. wa ingat lagi, lu balik2 class je, mesti jenguk bilik wa. and evrytime habis class sure akan msg ke, beli mknn skali, and wa mesti suro lu teman wa mkn. sbb lu tau wa mmg x bole mkn sorg2. pastu wa pon akan cite pape yg berlaku n lu dgr. walaupon lu suke membebel, tapi lu slalu dgr dgn sabar kalau wa membebel kan. pagi2 weekend mesti kt akan turun cafe bfast, dgn kak emi n yg lain. port lepak utama, tasik KK12. aaa. rinduu. pastu wa ingat lagi mase u were so into PP "F". wa pon same, tp x dasyat mcm lu la. pastu one fine nite, emo, duduk dkt balcony dgr lagu mltr. funny you. tp tu mase first sem. second sem da tak. kisah "riri' pulak. another hilarious, and never-ending story. kalau ingat balik, wa terharu sgt with ur full support and pengorbanan lu. lu x pernah bosan dgn cite2 wa, n lu lyn je kan. kalau mlm je, wa dgn lu slalu x keruan lah. mcm2. pastu mule lah, "aishah, jom teman kt turun jalan2 amik angin dkt bwh, kt mcm tgh x btol". lu pon slalu mcm tu gak. pastu mlm2 we both wandering around tanpa arah tuju, melayan perasaan masing2. daku ingat sume tu. kalau tgh hujan mlm2, wa lagi la. ape lg, aishahhh... eheh.



dulu wa kalau sakit, lu jugak yg detect dulu, sampai kadang2 wa x sedar pon wa x sihat or x okay. ingat lagi mase rubella, after balik2 dr surau solat subuh, lu dtg bilik wa, lu tgk wa lain mcm, lu terus dtg dkt wa. "shira,awk demam ke? muke awk nampak lain". "ehh, panas ni, sy rase awk demam la, x pyh pg class la hr ni" few hours later wa dtg bilik lu, wa ckp x sedap badan, muke wa da merah2 n bengkak. ingat lg lu ckp lps lecture pg tu, lu balik kolej nak teman wa pg clinic. lu risau mase tu. tu mase rubella. mase wa sakit 'aneh' yg first time detected dkt pasum pon, lu yg perasan dulu. muke wa mcm alien mase tu. mate merah2 sume. lu ingat wa nangis. tp tak. paling daku terharu, your sincerity towards me. and i know u cared. daku ingat lagi mcm mane anda jage daku mase daku sakit. sakit as in 'sakit'. anda tau kan? daku pernah cite dkt anda sorg je kwn pasum daku, until one day you and the rest witnessed it during sleepover at my place. since dat, anda slalu jage daku. if sumthin happened, you informed my family. and daku ingat lagi,dis one time, yg anda dgn daku tak okay for few days, lepas tu daku 'sakit'. they told me you were so worried abt me. daku balik rumah mase tu. balik2 tu, kakak daku ckp, "sweetnye aishah td". daku ingat, anda dtg baring sbelah daku dgn telekung anda, "shira, awk okay ke?" since dat, kalau daku nampak lain mcm je anda tanye okay ke x. anda slalu dtg bilik daku to check on me. there was dis one day, daku pernah ckp daku x sedap hati, and x boleh solat. anda dtg bilik daku, anda tanye, "nak sybacekan manzil utk awk?" seriously aishah, you're the sweetest thing.

kalau daku nak cite sume bende yg anda bwat utk daku, xkan habis. terlalu byk. n i'm too grateful knowing sumone like you in my life. u've changed me into a better person. byk daku blaja dr anda, n yg lain. sejak knal anda daku jd baik sikit. huhu. i learnt how to become a better muslimah, etc. sejak knal anda n mira jugak, br daku dgr n lyn nasyid. eheh. daku rindu sume kenangan. daku rindu nak solat jemaah dgn anda n yg lain, solat terawih same2, bukak puase n sume tu. byk sgt yg daku rindu. paling daku rindu, nak gado dgn anda mcm dulu. heh. u've always been there for me, aishah. always. mayb daku dulu x pernah ckp sumthin like dis to you. sbb daku dgn anda due2 pon ego kan. tp daku syg anda. habis2 pasum, anda la org paling daku rindu. dulu, anda slalu dgr cite daku. daku susah nak cite dkt org lain. anda tau sume bende psl daku. daku rase xde pon yg anda xtau. sume bende psl daku, and kisah lampau daku anda tau. anda ingat tak ade satu hari, daku teringat sgt sumone yg da lame gle x contact n lost contact, anda tlg daku. sbb anda la daku dpt contact dgn die till now. dulu daku ingat lg sume kwn daku mcm kwn anda. hp daku pon slalu dgn anda n mira. msg kwn daku anda yg reply. pasal Mr. H lagila, anda n mira mmg jobless. habis2 pasum, daku rase eneh. sbb anda da xde dgn daku. anda jauh. daku da xtau nak membebel dkt sape anda. sampai evryday kt msg n gayot kan. padahal daku bukan suke gayot pon anda. tp dgn anda, daku bole habiskan credit mcm tu je. rase mcm byk je bende nak cite dkt anda. daku happy lepas pasum daku dpt balik klantan, n stay rumah anda. last raye pon, daku sgt2 excited dpt jumpe anda kejap lepas terawih dkt kelantan. jodoh kt mmg kuat aishah. eheh.


skrg anda jauuhh. daku sedih. tp xpe, anda slalu dgn daku. sampai skrg pon anda slalu dgn daku. thanx anda. anda x pernah tinggalkan daku. walaupon anda dkt sabah n daku dkt ipoh, tp kt still rapat mcm dulu. jumpe je tak. kisah daku dr daku awl2 dtg ipoh sampai la skrg anda tau. and dgn anda je daku bole gayot for few hours utk membebel. sbb anda je yg btol2 faham daku, and sume yg daku lalui selame ni. daku tau, daku da xkan jumpe another you in the future. u're too precious to me. daku tau anda mesti tak sangke daku bole ckp mcm ni. mayb sbb daku x pernah mcm ni dgn anda before dis kan. one thing you have to know, the more i care about sumone, the harder it is for me to express me. simply moi. jd, anda tau kan anda org penting. cheh. daku tibe2 geli. i know u're reading dis aishah, and uve been my silent reader yg mmg suke bace je n x suke comment. heh.

"dgn gue lu x pyh tipu la. org lain lu boleh la tipu"-aishah.
i know you know me well, n i cant hide anythin from you.
thanx for evrythin makciks. anda kekuatan daku tau?

last but not least, happy sweet 2oth bday makciks. how i wish i could celebrate wit you, and dpt menjalankan idea-idea kejam. heh. take care of dat lil teddy.


yang jauh di mata, shahira. ;)

birthday and birthday.

21 February 2009:
Location: Eastin Hotel.
happy bday mamito! had a great great time wit familia. aint no other. :D






7 February 2009:
Location: rumah no 31.
happy bday to my one and only roomie, raden. dis time, its a lil bit diff from the previous bday(s). we decided to make a simple, but sweet bday surprise rather than main kotor like we used to do. took us some time to think and we ended up wit dis. pnat jugak fikir utk sorg2 punye surprise, after one n another.






3 February 2009:
Location: Padang depan rumah fika+syida.
Happy bdayy to our so-called mummy, sarah.
A definetely unforgettable bday. we had soo much fun and main tak ingat dunia. lagi2, when it comes to game yg ntah pape-tapi fun-tapi susah woo-dann sgt memalukan. highlight of the day, berjaya pujuk n suap sarah mkn oreo yg berintikan kodomo lion. too bad lah kan. ;p
apabila PPG, GBS n GLB bersatu, make the perfect us. :)







29 January 2009:
Location: Bora Asmara.
Happy bday to my dearest kakak whos turning 25. a memorable one, i could say. unexpected nite, wit the live band performing n also clown. happy to see you happy. :D




same day,
Location: Red Box, mini playground unisel.
Happy bday to batch. Had a karaoke session wit the gurls, then we went to Unisel to fetch mimi then lepak then camwhoring, as usual. sgtt gembira pada hari itu. thanx kwn2.:))

selamat ulang tahun, mama.

happy birthday mama.

you were my strength when i was weak,
you were my voice when I couldn't speak,
you were my eyes when I couldn't see,
you saw the best there was in me,
lifted me up when I couldn't reach,
you gave me faith cause you believed,
I'm everything I am,
Because you loved me.

"mama sayang adik muco muco, byk2 mcm bintang, bulan, gunung n matahari. jaga diri ok.
luv u"

adik sygggg mama lagi banyak dan banyak dan banyakk lagi.
love u ma, always. <33

update.

1.45 a.m: finally, safely arrived home sweet home.

3.18 a.m: rasa aneh, dan janggal. its been a whilee kann. wanted to update my blog, tapi kesibukan melanda. sorry to those people, that ive been ignoring for the past few weeks, without any intention. maaf kalau rase terabai. tidak sengaja. bukan purposely tak reply msgs n such, but there were some reasons needless to b mentioned here.
my life has been a roller-coster ride for the past weeks, yet im still living a happy life. thank god.

enough of dat. siapa rindu sy? angkat tgn. heh. tauu ramai. bukan perasan, but i have prove tauu. ;p (na, ur one of them kan?) crappy moi. br habis CVS exam, mcm ni lah gayanya. heh.

sy adaaa banyakkk benda nak ckp. nak bgtauu. bykk sgtt. n dats the prob when u have so many things to tell, u dunt even know how to start it. problematic. paling penting anda, im homeeeeee. super duper gembira. in fact, dah berapa hari mcm teringat rumah. mcm memanggil-memanggil. ini bukan homesick. because im not the homesick type. trust me. cuma rinduuuu ma n pa. n nano n adam. my lil babies. ye lah, tak jumpe lg since balik umrah. :((

i want to update the bday(s) of the month, tapi tunggu bday ma dulu. mama's bday coming up real soon. yeayness. and we might go to pd or another unknown place dis weekend, either one. tak kisah. yg penting, complete set of us. bilangan ahli keluarga cukup, check-mate. perfecto. =)

will update more later yea? i shud get some sleep. tak cukup tido sbenarnye. mentally and physically tired.

awk suka saya tapi saya suka dia, tapi dia tak suka saya, jadi saya suka awk balik.
dia suka saya tapi saya tak suka dia, tapi awk ada, tapi saya tak tau.

some crappy stuff. nytey nite. sleep tight.

Love Letters Compilation.

i believe, sumthin is not right.

my very own theraphy

When we want to talk to ALLAH,we pray and say prayers.
When we want to hear ALLAH talk to us, we read The Holy Al-Qur'an,
God's Love Letters Compilation is the best balm, given at any time.

Verily in the remembrance of ALLAH do hearts find rest.


O' Allah, I need you.

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you.

Corus Paradise.

2 days, and a night stay was all worth it. enough said. and of course, setelah diketepikan segala bentuk cabaran at the beginning of the journey. :)

Breathtaking.

the three stooges. :D

at last! thank you kerana merealisasikan hasrat. :)

when she says.

first thing first, goodbye ipoh.
we'll see you in a week time, okayh?

location: ipoh.

it feels diff not having ma, pa, abe n nano around. a strange funny feeling. i kinda feel, err, incomplete? not exactly sedih. tipu gila. haha. okay okay, i better admit that i was kinda sad, the nite before they went off, since i wasnt around to send em.
tapi, im okay now. mayb sbb last year pon they went for umrah, lagi sedih, and back in 2004, they went for haj. lagi laa sedihhh. so, this time less sedih. immune. :)

230109
01:52 a.m
papa lovey: Br touchdown di madinah, sayang. Alhamdulillah, penerbangan lancar n selamat. how's everything in M'sia? we all tgh que immigration clearance di airport. good night sayang.

Alhamdulillah, they arrived safely. we'll see you in 2 weeks time.
I Miss You.

Second thing, now i can sleep wit my BILLY temporarily. period. But left Moo Moo in Ipoh. takpela, fair and square. now turn billy pulak. heh.

Billy given by kakak, Moo moo, by nano.
*winks*

take a deep look at this picture. aint em adorable? sgtttttt kan. i'm drooling over those cupcakes and i want this badlyyyyyyy.
serious nakkk. i prefer this instead of bday cake. padahal bday lambatt lagi. haha.
but nothin wrong wit that, at least one way of mengiburkan hati.

i loike!

compilation of memoirs.

woke up early in the morning,
checked my hp,
few new msgs, few missed calls,
read em, erased em.

was about to delete other msgs in my inbox, but i ended up smiling to myself. :)

the same color represents the same person, okay?



2007:
" If u'r happy, i'll b happy too. If u'r sad, i'll b sad too. If u'r angry, i'll b angry too, If u'r crying, i'll cry with u, If u need help, i'm here for u, If u wanna tell, i'll listen to u.
I luv ya dear! "

"Yesterday u told me sumthin i thought u knew, and I told u with a smile, 'its all about u'. Then u whispered in my ears and u told me too, said 'u make my life worthwhile', its all about you. "

"Hey. ull b fine dear. True frenship lasts the test of time. She wont b gone 4eva"

"ouhh. eh? we need u. seriously weyh. huhu. pls, pls kay."

"Hi, how r u? I'm going back 2 Japan next week. If possible, maybe we can go for a lunch if u'r free?"
(okay, this part is hilarious. there's a story behind it. haha. i miss u, hide-my classmate in british council)

"Huhu. once upon a time, there was a genie whu culdnt fall asleep. so, she closd her eyes n thot of hepi thots dat made her smile. thn she fell asleep. ;p"

" Bestnye dpt peluk awk be4 gi matriks. syg awk.
Thanks. u too. good luck kat pasum nanti. i luv u so much"
(knowing her, i couldnt believe she actly wrote dat. terharu)

"Ok. Up to u lar. B prepared for 6 tough years ahead! We r ryt behind u!"
(This sumhow means a lot to me. thanx)

"Shera. how r u 2day? Kt doakan awk cepat sihat k. ktorg sume risau. take care yah. klu kt ad kat ruma blh jgk dtg tgk. tp sume jauh2.pls take care tau shera. rehat k."
(when i had rubella.)

"sdey la x dpt jumpe awk lg da pasni. =( hey thanks 4 da pressie!so cute. u bought tht frm swak eh?thanx syg! n thanx 4 da massage td. hehee. =)"

2008:
"Aww. kt sedih.tsk2.kt tau ktorg sume hargai eachother dgn cara yg berbeda.kita semua.as long as ktorg sume stay cnncted. i'Allah bnde ni akn bertahan. thanx jugak shera. d thought of still having korang sume buat kt kuat. :D tdolah.gudnite."

"oh. insyaallah. just so u knw, i miss u. walau kt da jarang jumpe, tp kt still syg awk. n sowry if i do neglect u. i was a jerk. tp awk still top5 org plg pntg kt. :)"

"Salam syera, ape khabar, sy sgt teringat kat awk, sy rase semakin jauh dgn awk, tp sy x pernah lupa awk, byk sgt gembira dgn awk. Harap awk sihat"


"Jangan bilang tidak' jikaku berkata yg 'ku merindu'i kamu. namun daku 'menjaga hati'ku supaya tidak mengikut kata hati kernaku tahu 'cinta' boleh membuatkan manusia buta.
'ku mahu kau tahu' bahawa 'bila aku sudah tiada', hatiku tetap menjadi milikmu.
(another hilarious one. creative mind, aishah. combinations of our memoirs, pasum time. i miss!)

sentimental, i know. shahira mmg begini. i actually saved those msgs cuz each of em has a story behind it, and i still remember semuanya.
memoirs.

2 weeks of hectiness, due to the pack schedule of Cardiovascular System Module. tough and pack, yet interesting, really. better though, i like it this way. at least i know i need to stay focus, and put aside the other unimportant minor minor things.

unfortunately, the entire week has been a real, devastating one. physically, emotionally, spritually devastating. the inner conflict is even worse, you know. tiring indeed. this is what we call, a private war within oneself. on my side, and also on the other side. i'm scared i'll lose my grip. i'm scared i cant hold on, no more. please you. i don't like getting involved in this kinda thing. i'm so freaking tired to be the middle person. dari dulu pon.

and please, don't drag me into ur own mess. boleh tak? grow up will you? and act maturely boleh? how i wish i could b ignorant, not that selfish ignorant idiot, but at least, the positive side of it, i wont b hurting so much.
when i'm mad, i prefer to keep queit. when my world is falling apart, i prefer to fix things back on my own. i always thought i could solve things by myself, but sumtimes, you know, its killing me on the inside. its just, and urggh feeling. tau tak? why do you have to do this to me, when i did nothin to you? why do you have to screw things up only bcause of silly little things. let me tell you, its the egoistic part of you. you're such an ego maniac, and do you know how much i hate that?

please everyone. please. i need some respect. i think its the time for me to change. how i wish i could voice out everythin? how i wish i could tell you what exactly i feel? how i wish i could tell you whats going on my mind. how i wish kan.
kenapa kita selalu terlalu fikirkan perasaan org lain, tapi org lain tak pernah kisah kan? penat. sgt penat. thank god, i'm goin back tomorow, to the place where i belong.

i want to go back to my high school days. when everything seemed so wrong, only with a simple-magic-warm-hug, i felt at ease.
i need hugs. :(

pija dearest.

pijaaaa ku sygggg.
happy sweet 20th bday, my dearest darling. i miss youuu.
haf a blast k? kt doakan awk selalu. :)

credits to al, for the bday video.

do visit http://aliahkama.blogspot.com/ to watch the video, okay?

and i'm missing each and evryone of you in the video.
at least, terubat rindu.
thank you missy aleyya. :D

last but not least, to pija, call me watever you want, i still love you. kt tak kisah. yg penting anda tetap bertakhta di hati. and of course, cubitan berbisa yg tak mungkin kt lupekan sampai bila-bila.
and ohh, i heart youu thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss much.
xoxo.

Bingung

Semalam mentari menghilang
dan siang ini bulan ikut serta

Sungguh…
Cukup lama kunanti ia terbit
Hingga kusadari langit t’lah gelap

Sungguh…
Cukup lama kutunggu pijar bintang
Hingga kusadari salah jam

Kemarin…
Lautan masih kekeringan, sebab
Daratan masih saja kebanjiran

Kemarin…
Apa yang tampak masih saja tak terlihat
dan yang tersembunyi menyeruak dengan mudahnya

Bingung.

say you.

Hidup tak selalunya indah, langit tak selalu cerah. kann?
to you, thousand apologies.
im trully sorry.
good nite.

coincidence?

Disangka tidur hanya sehari
Rupanya 309 tahun
Zaman bertukar beberapa kurun
Di bumi bersejarah Urdhu.

Begitulah kuasa Ilahi
Kepada ashabhul kahfi
Tiada mustahil di dunia ini
Jika kita beriman dan bertakwa.

i was singing this song, entitled Ashabul Kahfi, by Raihan thru out the day, and even now. i wonder why too. until after maghrib prayer, when i opened Al-Qur'an to continue reciting from the page i stopped yesterday, suprisingly, the nx page i opened, it was written "Al-Kahfi".
mcm tergamam seketika. a big coincidence kan? gembira, and at the same time, ade satu perasaan halus yg menyelinap masuk ke hati, lagi2 when bace terjemahan. am listening to the song rite now, sbb raden suruh dgr. :)

Persoalan demi persoalan, mungkinkah sesuatu di sebalik semua ini?
wallahu'alam.

cerita tentang mereka.

new discovery; now i know the whole family read my blog except for pa, and abe(i'm not sure abt abe). this is embarassing. like seriously. and my sisters are my regular blog readers. i don't really mind at all, but still malu jugaklah kan. adam lagi laa poyo. " eleh adik, tulis psl adam dlm blog. terharu adam". whatever lah kan. end of the story.

i'm goin back to ipoh tmrw, finally, after 2 weeks of break. its gonna be awkward to write 2009, instead of 2008. hafta get use to it. awal tahun, mcm ni lah gayanya. ;p andd, reminder to shahira anuar, enough of fooling around,sekian terima kasih. :D new year, new spirit. kononn. ;p serious nervous to meet everyone in ipoh. *butterflies in stomach*
yawn. merapek sy, i know.

within this short period of time, i'm pretty satisfied. i finally manage to shorten the list of 'who-i-have-to-meet' especially friends. pia, after this jgn ckp kt sombong da k? :) n ohh, i started to miss my cousins already. no more hingar-bingar, no mo funn. a month with all of you around, it was a blast. no kidding. i miss you, budak-budak. kak shahira rindu kamu semua. no mo senaman si tommy, no mo bedtime stories. i miss! *supersigh* :(

to my dear bestie, thank you for the time. annis is goin back to uk, on the 14th of jan, and i wont b around by that time, so, goodbye-in-advance. take care sweety.

to nina dearest, i'm eagerly waiting for you to come home. am counting the days. tick tock tick tock. sy rindu awkk.

to aliah, selamat berjuang utk peperiksaan yg bakal menjelang. you soo gonna rock it, and u're my forever rockstar. kt dan yg lain doakan. insyaallah. :)

PALING PENTING!
maliq janji nak bwk kt gi PD kann? you better make it up for me, or ill haunt you in ur dreams. haha. kt nakkk. da lame sgt sgt sgttt nak pg.

last but not least, pictures. goodbye evryone.

miserable.

i miss some people from the past, terribly. whether i miss, or they've just come across my mind, and well, suddenly, teringat. which is which, im not sure. mimpi punya pasal lah ni. now im blaming all those weird dreams which coincidentally occured one after another. pelik perhaps. i just don't know. apparently, it's been bothering me. cuti pon susah. i soo need to get back to hectic life.

the ironic part, evrythin rings a bell to me. the place, the crowd, the smell, the songs, simply everythin. when i smell sumthin, automatically, it reminds me of a place which i've been before, the people who used to b around me, incidents taking place. semua lah. songs especially, every song actually has sumthin behind it, at least for me. and i can tell you, this song is for who, that song is for who, and who belongs to that particular song. haha.

and now, at this moment, sgttt teringat those people in the past. yg mmg dah tak tau ape cite. tapi, i would like to hear from them the soonest, at this very moment. those people, yg i purposely changed my old e-mail, account and evrythin, yg i deleted their contacts, yg i deleted all msgs in my inbox, contacts from phone book. i was trying so hard to make sure i can never reach them dah in the future. fyi, this is my only way to forget sumone. true that. it works for me. sampai mmg dah takkan mampu menjejaki mereka ini.

tapi sekarang tgk lah ape jadi. i tried to find their names in my phone book, sumhow hoping too much that i eventually save em, search thru facebook and all, and many other ways, but at the end of the day, it didnt even work. i came to realise that i couldnt even remember some of the names ponn. i feel miserable. ahh. penat mencari, lalu surrender. serious pathetic gila. padan muka sendiri. sape suruh.

i hope i'll hear from you, someday. just wanna check on you, and just wanna know how u're doin. tu je. nothin more. salah ke? :((

Salam Maal Hijrah. :)

1 Muharam 1430 Hijrah.
Semoga lembaran baru ini lebih baik dari yang lalu. Amin.

Doa Awal Tahun Hijrah.
Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang; segala pujian bagi Allah Penguasa sekalian alam; selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan Nabi dan Rasul iaitu penghulu Nabi Muhammad S.A.W dan kepada keluarga serta sahabat baginda sekalian.
Ya Allah, Engkaulah yang kekal; qadim lagi azali dan di atas kelebihan Engkau yang besar; dan kemurahan Engkau yang telah mendatangi kami, kami memohon kepada Engkau pemeliharaan padanya daripada syaitan yang direjam, pembantu-pembantunya dan tentere-tenteranya dan kami memohon pertolongan dari nafsu yang banyak mendorong kepada kejahatan dan kami memohon kepada Engkau untuk melakukan sebarang pekerjaan yang boleh mendekatkan diri kami kepada Engkau.
Ya Allah, Tuhan yang merubah segala keadaan, rubahlah keadaan kami kepada sebaik-baik keadaan dengan kekuasaan dan kurniaan Engkau, wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang.

Wahai Tuhan kami, kurniailah kepada kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan kebahagiaan di akhirat dan peliharalah kami dari azab api neraka. Dan cucurilah rahmat dan salam kepada penghulu kami Nabi Muhammad S.A.W dan kepada keluarganya dan para sahabat baginda sekalian. Segala pujian bagi Allah Tuhan Pentadbir seluruh alam.

AMIN.