miserable.

i miss some people from the past, terribly. whether i miss, or they've just come across my mind, and well, suddenly, teringat. which is which, im not sure. mimpi punya pasal lah ni. now im blaming all those weird dreams which coincidentally occured one after another. pelik perhaps. i just don't know. apparently, it's been bothering me. cuti pon susah. i soo need to get back to hectic life.

the ironic part, evrythin rings a bell to me. the place, the crowd, the smell, the songs, simply everythin. when i smell sumthin, automatically, it reminds me of a place which i've been before, the people who used to b around me, incidents taking place. semua lah. songs especially, every song actually has sumthin behind it, at least for me. and i can tell you, this song is for who, that song is for who, and who belongs to that particular song. haha.

and now, at this moment, sgttt teringat those people in the past. yg mmg dah tak tau ape cite. tapi, i would like to hear from them the soonest, at this very moment. those people, yg i purposely changed my old e-mail, account and evrythin, yg i deleted their contacts, yg i deleted all msgs in my inbox, contacts from phone book. i was trying so hard to make sure i can never reach them dah in the future. fyi, this is my only way to forget sumone. true that. it works for me. sampai mmg dah takkan mampu menjejaki mereka ini.

tapi sekarang tgk lah ape jadi. i tried to find their names in my phone book, sumhow hoping too much that i eventually save em, search thru facebook and all, and many other ways, but at the end of the day, it didnt even work. i came to realise that i couldnt even remember some of the names ponn. i feel miserable. ahh. penat mencari, lalu surrender. serious pathetic gila. padan muka sendiri. sape suruh.

i hope i'll hear from you, someday. just wanna check on you, and just wanna know how u're doin. tu je. nothin more. salah ke? :((