rooftop rant.

Uitm Shah Alam Rooftop.

20th floor.

sunset, while it was raining.

so there we were, watching Shah Alam view from above, the rooftop. one of batch's biggest request before she leaves. the best part, of course when it was raining. its been my favourite and will always be. there's always sumthin about the rain, there's always sumthin about watching rains falling down from the dark blue skies, for me at least. the-forever-turn-me-on.


and when the rain begins to fall,

you ride my rainbow in the sky,

and i will catch you if you fall,

you never have to ask me why,

nd when the rain begins to fall,

ill be the sunshine in your life.

almost complete. al, na, ja, pia, syam missing. i miss you. i do.

Lelaki Melayu Terakhir.

5.36 a.m

Compared to the previous post which is rather motif-less to me and im sure to the readers as well, i think im writing this post with motif. heh. you tell me alryte.

lately it happened that i indulged myself in all sorts of male-female relationship(s) or more too, marriage likewise? you see, my sisters and cousins are getting married, anytime soon. sepatutnya lah kan, being the younger children in the family wont cause you any problem since u're the little one which means u dont really have to think much. but things turned out the other way round for me. (told u i think a whole lot of evrythin) nothing like 'gatal or nak kawin cepat' issues here. its more on the thinking. the way how i take it, and in this case, i do take it seriously. i admit that i dont think like the other teenagers do, sy slalu fikir terlampau jauh walaupun sebenarnya masih sgt muda. tapi tak kisahla, age doesnt count in.

the highlight of the story is not the wedding, btw. its gonna be abt the one ure gonna spend ur whole life with? and all of a sudden, there are too many 'what IF's'in my head. 'what if i make a wrong decision one day, what if i settle down with the wrong guy, and trust me, its a neverending list'. anyhoo, ignore the pessimistic part of it.

i'd like to be sumone wit full commitments. what im looking in a relationship is a simple relationship, yet with full commitments, and of course end up with marriage. i always have this perfect picture of who-so-ever whos gonna be my future husband. Of lelaki melayu terakhir. guys come and go but the real man will stay in the picture at the end of the day. tak salah kan if we could picture it by now?

i need a man who can guide me, who can change me into a better person. i always imagine a man who can be the perfect leader of the family. i dream of a man who can be my 'imam' with myself being a makmum, performing solat jemaah together. i dont need a man who is only good at words and do the sweet talks all the time but all i need is sumone who can make me think more
than twice whenever he starts to speak up, sumone who soothes my heart with hadith and dalil-dalil Qur'an when my world is turning upside down and the list goes on.

i need a man like papa. in fact, we all need a man like papa.

thats still a long long way to go, i'm sure. tapi mama slalu pesan, "kt kena selalu doa utk jodoh yg terbaik dari sekarang. bukan nak kahwin baru doa. mama selalu doakan jodoh yg terbaik utk anak-anak mama, bukan anyone yg specific for each of you because Allah knows best. Allah knows who's the best for you"

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu,dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu.Allah mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui"
(Surah Al-baqarah:216)

i cant dream of anyone else but sumone like papa as a future husband. tapi tu lah, its really hard to find. one in a million. evrytime if mama and papa gi makkah, we never failed to kirim doa and our favourite one will be, doakan ktorg dpt suami mcm papa, insyaAllah. :)

something to share(courtesy of aishah):

"Dengarilah sahabatku syg, Allah memujukmu, 'At-Toyyibat Littoyibin'-annur:26,
Wanita baik itu dijanjikan untuk lelaki yg baik dan sebaliknya. Telah tercatat seungkap nama di Loh Mahfuz utkmu. cuma peribadi ditentukan oleh sejauh mana ketinggian peribadimu. Jika kau terhambat di jalan yg diredhai, insyaAllah si dia turut sama. Lupakan segala kegundahan, teguhkan diri pada cinta hakiki,nescaya cinta si dia yg soleh turut kau miliki. Senyumlah pada sinar yg menantimu."

deep, yet a meaningful one. =)

yes, we were jobless.

and yes, we've gone crazy over those seluar kotak-kotak which me thinks are super duper adorable.kann? ;p

dear bestfriend.

Thank God I found you,
I was lost without you,
My every wish and every dream,
Somehow became reality,
When you brought the sunlight,
Completed my whole life,
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude,
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you.

p/s: our favourite since like forever! :D

i tried writing a poem for you.

i even ask the stars at night and the sweet defodils,
then i ask the sunshine and the moonlite on what i should write,
they smile to me and left me in wonders.
i thought for hours until i finally figure it out,
but all i could only write was 3 words.
'i miss you'

random.

this is a random post. i need to rant, but i guess im not used to it anymo.

i need to tell, or at least say sumthin, but at the end of the day, nothin will come out from moi, like usual.

humans are fuelled by lust and desire, its so freaking true, no?

i never take things lightly, and i think a whole lot of evrything in the most complicated way.
at least before im off to bed, i need to think, like really really think.

the probability for me to miss sumone whenever the rain falls down is high, i tell you. and i have to double agree with myself. thats when the memoirs come along too. *sighhh*

i miss travelling, BIG time. being a traveller is a major fun. there's sumthin about it. i wish i could travel all around the world by myself, one fine day. one fact about me, im not a fan of shopping. i dont shop like the other girls normally do. i'd rather go to places where the view are naturally breathtaking,where i would just sit queitly and stare at its best. it would be more than enough for me. its a theraphy, of tranquility. :)

im on my one week break. done with endocrine exam. SSM's comin up. take a chill pill, yaw.
im off to melaka tomorow morning. need the new air. was literally half 'insane' and i have to keep myself sane again. heh.

off to bed now, righteo?
nightey, dont let the bed bugs bite alryte. :D

27/9/09:

As the bus was about to begin the journey;
1 message received:

kakak: Sedih =( bubbye adikto. Love u!
adik: Bye2. Love you three.

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an hour later:
kakak: I miss you so much la berra. Sdey. =(
adik: whyla.
kakak: Sdeyla. We didnt really spend time 2gether.
adik: haiyo. whyla so emo.
kakak: Dunno. feel like crying. huhu.
adik: haila. chill la mokcik.


As I was browsing thru fb:
Adam Anuar: boring adik takde.dahla kak ya balik hari selasa :(
Aliaa Anuar: MISSES ADIK ALREADY. =(
Adila Anuar: yeah,miss adik too
Hidayah Anuar: me three =<

Muhd Faiz: me 4 bleh?

dats when i realised my eyes started to become all teary.
to kakak: tell me where can i find another kakak who bersusah payah uruskan my laptop when i definetely knew nothing about it and said to me "anything for you, adik", who brought back books all the way from swak just because i wanted em so badly, and bought them some more and wrapped it up when i kept on bugging u to buy me those books, who kept on texting and calling me while im in ipoh just to ask me how am i doing and to make sure im coping well with the studies and exams, although i neglected u most of the time and didnt really show u how i care for u.

this is for u, ya mok2, i loveeeeeeeeeeeee youuu banyak2. hee. jgn homesick2 dkt sana. less than a year left and ull be back for good. chaiyok2. and also to my other siblings. u guys have always been my favourites and will always be. aint no other. kekuatan saya! :)

La Tahzan.

"Bila kau memandang segalanya dari Tuhanmu,
yang menciptakan segalanya,
yang menimpakan ujian,
yang menjadikan hatimu sakit,
yang membuatkan keinginanmu terhalang dan menguji hidupmu,
pasti akan damailah hatimu kerana masakan Dia sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya sesuatu
yang sia-sia,
bukan Dia tidak tahu deritanya hidupmu, retaknya hatimu,
tapi mungkin itulah yang Dia mahu,
kerana Dia tahu hati beginilah yang selalunya lebih lunak dan mudah utk dekat dan akrab
dengan-Nya."

p/s: thanx mel. it helps a lot.

O'Allah, i need you. please come into my heart. aminn.

please be strong. Allah is wit u, always. =)

Dear friend,

please be strong and hang in there. i know u're such a fighter, azwan. looking at ur condition yesterday has put me into tears, but miracle happens anytime, God is great. i'm wishing for ur speedy recovery. our prayers will always be with you. please wake up, dear friend. ur family and friends are all waiting for you. everybody loves you. u'll make it thru, insyaAllah. may Allah bless you. amin.

p/s: we need your prayers, people. thank you.

jupiter. <3

ignore the title of this post anyway. it has got nothin to do wit the post but it surely has its own significance. :)

Langkawi trip was simply the best. the crowd, the place, the view, semua lah=awesome-est. Big thanks to my dearest kakak, ekin, shidot,izyan, usman, razi, safwan and org2 penting who made it, and also to the whole bunch as well, korg sgt best. :D




hopefully nx time, semua dpt join, n im sure its gonna be fun, the more the merrier ritee?

not planning to tell the details about the whole journey, cuz i'm sure its gonna be pretty long, BUT here are some details about the trip and let the pics do the rest. pics say it all kan? for more pics, tgk dkt fb k?

Theme song: Kau Ilhamku. :)

Day 1: arrived Chenang Rest House at around 6 p.m, beach activities, later at night we went for a walk along the night market,followed by guitar session near the beach.

Day 2: wanted to watch the sunrise but guess we're late although it was only 7 sumthin in the morning. sgt hampa but still menaruh harapan for the next day. heh. went for Island Hopping, the part I like the most. first stop, Tasik Dayang Bunting,where most of us took a ride on paddle boats around the lake. nicee. were then headed for Pulau Singa n last but not least, Pulau Beras Basah. after lunch we went to Underwaterworld sbb semua semangat tgk penguin. chomel gile k.
Later in the evening, Banana Boat timee, n oh, Ijol, raden and I did parasailing. the view from above during sunset was really fascinating. sgt terpaku tgk, sgt indah ciptaan tuhan. Subhanallah.


malam pulak sesi Bbq. the food was good, and we totally enjoyed the nite. thanx rakan2. another guitar session was made, took a walk along the beach wit shifaa, ekin n caien while melayan perasaan. gonna miss dat moment, Big time. :) sambung pulak dgn sesi teka-teki and it was hilarious, i tell u. keke Usman, si juara teka-teki. *claps*



Day 3: went for a walk in the morning. again, didnt get to watch the sunrise. *sigh* but it was sooooo windy. cuaca yg sempurna, me likey. teehee. went to Beras Terbakar and Pekan Kuah, tapi syg tak dpt naik cable car bcause of the weather. takpelah, nx time. ready to go home, had to go thru another longggg journey and I didnt sleep at all thru out the journey(in the bus) sbb sgt restless but not in the ferry sbb i was too drowsy, am sure everyone else did. thats about it. :)

trully,madly,deeply,

p/s: no mo waking up to the sound of waves. *sighh*, but I had enough of travelling. Kelantan, Sabah and Langkawi are definetely sweet moments to remember. :)

bubble tea!

Issues.

1)I'm craving for bubble tea badlyyyyyy. I want bubble tea, pretty please? kenapa kempunan sgt ni. haiyo. and why is it so hard to find one in Ipoh.

2)Why is it so hard to get things off my mind and why cant I just close my eyes and sleep?

3)Bulan sgtt indah mlm ni. :))

4)Hujan rintik-rintik. me likey.

5)I'm soooo into Karambunai. me definetely has no idea, but there's definetely sumthin about it.

6)Ive been thinking a lottttttt through out the day. why oh whyy. thinking with real deep thoughts pulak tuh. pastu mula lah melayan perasaan. not good. hobi yg sudah sekian lama tidak
diamalkan.

7)"I've got my pride, I'll not cry, but its making me weak". something is distracting me again. go away, oh please.

8)I shoudnt get distracted sepatutnya. shud have done wit Dyspepsia. ILA oh ILA..

9)Me thinks 2nd year topics are tougher than first year syllabus.

10)Say hello to my new BUDDY. :))

11)Feels better after talking to maliq today, annis semalam. sy perlu membebel utk tidak terus berfikir. :)

12) Cant wait to go homeee. Friday, it is. It is Friday, I'm in love. whatever yeah.

11)Might be going to Langkawi. bole pg beach lagi. yeay. :))



My housemates are away, now you know why I sounded so pathetic kan. patut lahhh.
Loneliness starts to sink in. I miss home, I miss Adam and Nano, I miss starlight, I miss Annis Natalia, I miss some people.

Since when, shahira?

Stand by me.

you're my wonderwall.

current mood: emosi+kemalasan yg nyata.

its been ages since i last updated my blog, i know riteee. the thing is, ive been too bz, making full use of 2 months hols n cant believe its gonna end soon. nak cuti lagi boleh? serious mcm tak sempat merasa bosan cuti ni. in fact, tak terasa nak balik ipoh langsong. weirdo. anyhoo, sila berpijak di bumi yg nyata. say goodbye to phase IA n welcome to phase IB. fuhh.

i had a quality time wit the loved ones. in fact, am pretty satisfied that i finally had the chance to meet some of my pasum friends, and my subang friends as well. bbq was awesome, thank you people. *thumbs up* at least i don't feel guilty for not being able to spend time with you people. hope to see you again, especially u, pia. harap2 dpt jumpe before awk fly.
to my dearest annis, thanks for the time. seriously sgt happy dpt jumpe awk cuti nih. i love you more. hee. :))

oh btw, sabah trip was a blast, i must say. priceless experience! gonna update soon. thanks to my partner, shifaa dear. see u in ipoh aite?

sgtttt sedih nak berpisah dgn family. tapi ipoh je ponn. mayb sbb cuti lame sgt kot. gonna miss u, adik-adikku, and the rest. BIG time. loves.

cuz maybe,
you're gonna be the one that saves me,
and after all,
you're my WONDERWALL.

ohana.

i actually did this, long long time ago...

no more.

i aint affected. fullstop.

i'm doing just fine.
getting along very well.


premis 1: shahira anuar sudah tidak rapuh lagi.

premis 2: shahira anuar tidak terkesan olehnya.

konklusi: shahira anuar tidak terkesan olehnya maka beliau sudah tidak rapuh lagi.

exactly.
coolness ay. bravo anda, bravo. *claps*

simple reminder.

"finally, u've reached your final lap. sikit je lagi. you're gonna make thru it, alryte." sumone used to tell me that. at that very moment, i told myself, sikit je lagi, bertahan shahira, bertahan. but dat was few years ago. i always thought i was at the end of the road, sampai jugak akhirnya. tapi, as years passing by, and at this point,i know the journey has just started. infact,only few simple footsteps were made. still a very longg long wayy to go, yes indeed. thank you Allah that ive made thru it. thank you ma and pa, sentiasa doakan adik. and to evryone else, thank you for the never ending support and prayers. :)

Dear Shahira Anuar,
this is not your achievement, nothing to be proud of, nothing to be boast about.

"Ya Allah, engkau hadir dalam setiap langkah hidupku. Sesungguhnya, aku yakin sesuatu yang berlaku itu dengan kekuasaan-Mu dan keizinan-Mu jua. Semua ini milik mu Ya Allah. Jadikanlah aku hamba-Mu yang bersyukur, yang tidak pernah lupa akan nikmat-Mu. Sesungguhnya kekuatan dalam diri ini hanya dari-Mu, Ya Allah.
thank you Allah."


Kadang-kadang kita terduduk dan menangis, sehingga merasakan diri ini terlalu lemah. ujian demi ujian, tapi semua itu datang dari Allah.
tapi yakinlah, Allah sentiasa ada bersama kita.

Never in my life, im giving up on myself. i believe in faith, i believe in Allah, wit dat i know there's no reason for you to give up. everyone deserves a second chance, faith is all you need.

A year has passed by, wit many more to come. be strong shahira, you're gonna make it thru it all, insyaallah.
welcome to phase IB. :)

for those who didn't make it, be strong. bukan rezeki lagi.
sumthin for you, hopefully it helps.

Allah S.W.T has 3 replies to our Dua:
1)'Yes'
2)'Yes' but not now.
3) I have better plan for you.
there's never a NO. just have faith and keep on praying.

we're with you, always. good luck. :)

for the past 7 days in a row; more or less, i had dis terrible nightmare. bukan nightmare dah kot. daymare skali. is there such word? heh. its like, everytime i sleep, be it day or night, even when i took a short nap pon bole mimpi teruk. gotta figure out why. tapi evrytime before tido mesti baca doa and basuh kaki. but still, mimpi teruk jugak. teruk or a real weird dream, its a must. those dreams were so real that sumtimes,i couldnt wake myself up, or unable to get back to sleep, either one.

sampai to the extent i could feel dat i was forcing myself so hard to open up my eyes simply because i want to end those dreams. physically, mentally, emotionally tired. i can feel the strong, unpleasant, mixed-up emotions all over me. pernah one day, i woke up shockingly and terus terduduk and cried as hard as i could. everytime lepas bangun, praise be to Allah, those were only dreams. Alhamdulillah.


Musculoskeletal-Skin System exam is over but dis time, its not the usual relieved feeling after exam, instead, perasaan yg tidak enak menanti Final Of Phase 1A exam. sindrom pra peperiksaan major.

note to myself: please please please study.
note to rakan2 serumah: selamat berjuang rakan-rakanku. we'll do this together.
and to the the rest, chaiyok2. ; )

tirot, shirot, dibot, radenot/dinot, silot.


note to Lulu and Tobby: mummy will b away for a while. duduk elok2 dgn silot k?




hmm, bunga dah layu pon. tak pandai jaga.

sebelum layu.

would i be out of line, if I say i miss you?

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i wonder why. now i know, its raining outside. thats about it. enough. yerp.


its been raining heavily, day and night. tp takpe. sy tak kisah. sy suka. :)
and guess wat, we were playing happily in the rain. main hujan tak ingat. the thing dat ive always wanted to do. try it, its fun tau. pastu pening, pastu sakit tekak, padan muka. heh.

yesterday i was a princess,
today i am back into reality.

i'm still confused, but watever it takes, i'll take one step at a time, slowly, i will.


he played few songs wit his guitar for me.
and you even sang kan? eheh.
lemme tell you that u've made my day, so thank you.
:D


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can i still be princess tomorrow?

goodbye.

hazman will b flying off to germany soon to further his studies.
bye-bye hazman hilmi.
take care and best wishes in evrythin you do aite. :)

reminiscing the memories.

2007, Dewan Tunku Chanselor, Universiti Malaya(Orientation week);

"Hye, name awk ape? sy shahira, ni roomate sy"
with a pure innocent face, she smiled and replied, "sy aishah"
"awk duduk floor mane?"
"sy duduk tingkat 3, blook D"
"eh, samela kt, bilik no brape?" "307"


dats how it started. coincidentally, kt duduk satu floor kan? kt, 301, awk n mira, 307. then, since dat, start baik. pg lecture, mkn sume skali(dat time tak separate class lg). the day mira lost her hp which is a long story, remember makcik kerepek? we all got closer kan? as the time passed by, the real you revealed. mmg salah gle first impression towards awk? at least, not me alone yg fikir mcm tu kan? ahah. aishah, aishah.. definetely sumone who is very unique indeed, and unpredictable too. tp sbb perangai awk yg pelik tu lah yg lg bwat kt rapat. saying sumthin sweet to you is definetely pelik. being mushy wit you lagi laa tak. mcm geli kan? in fact, since kat pasum pon gune "daku anda", tak pon "wa, lu". tp dgn lu sorg je la mek. sbb lu satu2nye makhluk pelik yg wa pernah jumpe kat muka bumi ni. so, lets just proceed wit dis. wa dpt bygkan ur facial expression tatkala you read dis. mesti rase cam nak blasah wa kan, like u used to do back in pasum. tp too bad lah, lu jauh. ;p mek, sejak kt da terpisah antara 2 benua ni, da xde org melakukan keganasan terhadap wa, sbb lu xde. aman. tp kadang2 rindu gak. sbb lu sorg je suke bully wa mcm tu. kat pasum dulu pon, sume org kesian tgk wa asyik kene bully dgn lu, nasib kak emi suke back up wa. n nasib gak wa baikkk. heh. wa ingat lg dulu lu suke sgt cari gado dgn wa. wa pon x faham. tgk org lain mane ade lu bully. enggak fair dong. daku tidak faham anda.




you see, we've known each other only within short period of time. approximately a year. but it seems like i've known you since like forever. and the truth is, you're the only person who know me even more than i do. funny ay. mayb sbb first time in my life, i live wit sumone else, other than my very own family. even my subg friends yg dah knal for how many years pon, still don't discover many things about me. anda? sume baik buruk daku pon anda da tgk kan. heh. its simply because we lived together for a year. susah senang same2. jiwang lak daku. xpela, alang2 da jiwang, baik daku teruskan je.


i could still remember all those sweet and bitter moments we've gone thru together, i mean all of us back in pasum. but most of em were the sweet moments. but among all, you're the closest to me. sampai diorg pon panggil kembar. kembar x seiras, definetely but many similarities and the strong bond btwn us. di mane ade aishah, di situ ade shahira, or vice versa. heh. gado2 slalu pon, lu jugak yg wa cari. lu faham2 je wa kan. wa ingat lagi, lu balik2 class je, mesti jenguk bilik wa. and evrytime habis class sure akan msg ke, beli mknn skali, and wa mesti suro lu teman wa mkn. sbb lu tau wa mmg x bole mkn sorg2. pastu wa pon akan cite pape yg berlaku n lu dgr. walaupon lu suke membebel, tapi lu slalu dgr dgn sabar kalau wa membebel kan. pagi2 weekend mesti kt akan turun cafe bfast, dgn kak emi n yg lain. port lepak utama, tasik KK12. aaa. rinduu. pastu wa ingat lagi mase u were so into PP "F". wa pon same, tp x dasyat mcm lu la. pastu one fine nite, emo, duduk dkt balcony dgr lagu mltr. funny you. tp tu mase first sem. second sem da tak. kisah "riri' pulak. another hilarious, and never-ending story. kalau ingat balik, wa terharu sgt with ur full support and pengorbanan lu. lu x pernah bosan dgn cite2 wa, n lu lyn je kan. kalau mlm je, wa dgn lu slalu x keruan lah. mcm2. pastu mule lah, "aishah, jom teman kt turun jalan2 amik angin dkt bwh, kt mcm tgh x btol". lu pon slalu mcm tu gak. pastu mlm2 we both wandering around tanpa arah tuju, melayan perasaan masing2. daku ingat sume tu. kalau tgh hujan mlm2, wa lagi la. ape lg, aishahhh... eheh.



dulu wa kalau sakit, lu jugak yg detect dulu, sampai kadang2 wa x sedar pon wa x sihat or x okay. ingat lagi mase rubella, after balik2 dr surau solat subuh, lu dtg bilik wa, lu tgk wa lain mcm, lu terus dtg dkt wa. "shira,awk demam ke? muke awk nampak lain". "ehh, panas ni, sy rase awk demam la, x pyh pg class la hr ni" few hours later wa dtg bilik lu, wa ckp x sedap badan, muke wa da merah2 n bengkak. ingat lg lu ckp lps lecture pg tu, lu balik kolej nak teman wa pg clinic. lu risau mase tu. tu mase rubella. mase wa sakit 'aneh' yg first time detected dkt pasum pon, lu yg perasan dulu. muke wa mcm alien mase tu. mate merah2 sume. lu ingat wa nangis. tp tak. paling daku terharu, your sincerity towards me. and i know u cared. daku ingat lagi mcm mane anda jage daku mase daku sakit. sakit as in 'sakit'. anda tau kan? daku pernah cite dkt anda sorg je kwn pasum daku, until one day you and the rest witnessed it during sleepover at my place. since dat, anda slalu jage daku. if sumthin happened, you informed my family. and daku ingat lagi,dis one time, yg anda dgn daku tak okay for few days, lepas tu daku 'sakit'. they told me you were so worried abt me. daku balik rumah mase tu. balik2 tu, kakak daku ckp, "sweetnye aishah td". daku ingat, anda dtg baring sbelah daku dgn telekung anda, "shira, awk okay ke?" since dat, kalau daku nampak lain mcm je anda tanye okay ke x. anda slalu dtg bilik daku to check on me. there was dis one day, daku pernah ckp daku x sedap hati, and x boleh solat. anda dtg bilik daku, anda tanye, "nak sybacekan manzil utk awk?" seriously aishah, you're the sweetest thing.

kalau daku nak cite sume bende yg anda bwat utk daku, xkan habis. terlalu byk. n i'm too grateful knowing sumone like you in my life. u've changed me into a better person. byk daku blaja dr anda, n yg lain. sejak knal anda daku jd baik sikit. huhu. i learnt how to become a better muslimah, etc. sejak knal anda n mira jugak, br daku dgr n lyn nasyid. eheh. daku rindu sume kenangan. daku rindu nak solat jemaah dgn anda n yg lain, solat terawih same2, bukak puase n sume tu. byk sgt yg daku rindu. paling daku rindu, nak gado dgn anda mcm dulu. heh. u've always been there for me, aishah. always. mayb daku dulu x pernah ckp sumthin like dis to you. sbb daku dgn anda due2 pon ego kan. tp daku syg anda. habis2 pasum, anda la org paling daku rindu. dulu, anda slalu dgr cite daku. daku susah nak cite dkt org lain. anda tau sume bende psl daku. daku rase xde pon yg anda xtau. sume bende psl daku, and kisah lampau daku anda tau. anda ingat tak ade satu hari, daku teringat sgt sumone yg da lame gle x contact n lost contact, anda tlg daku. sbb anda la daku dpt contact dgn die till now. dulu daku ingat lg sume kwn daku mcm kwn anda. hp daku pon slalu dgn anda n mira. msg kwn daku anda yg reply. pasal Mr. H lagila, anda n mira mmg jobless. habis2 pasum, daku rase eneh. sbb anda da xde dgn daku. anda jauh. daku da xtau nak membebel dkt sape anda. sampai evryday kt msg n gayot kan. padahal daku bukan suke gayot pon anda. tp dgn anda, daku bole habiskan credit mcm tu je. rase mcm byk je bende nak cite dkt anda. daku happy lepas pasum daku dpt balik klantan, n stay rumah anda. last raye pon, daku sgt2 excited dpt jumpe anda kejap lepas terawih dkt kelantan. jodoh kt mmg kuat aishah. eheh.


skrg anda jauuhh. daku sedih. tp xpe, anda slalu dgn daku. sampai skrg pon anda slalu dgn daku. thanx anda. anda x pernah tinggalkan daku. walaupon anda dkt sabah n daku dkt ipoh, tp kt still rapat mcm dulu. jumpe je tak. kisah daku dr daku awl2 dtg ipoh sampai la skrg anda tau. and dgn anda je daku bole gayot for few hours utk membebel. sbb anda je yg btol2 faham daku, and sume yg daku lalui selame ni. daku tau, daku da xkan jumpe another you in the future. u're too precious to me. daku tau anda mesti tak sangke daku bole ckp mcm ni. mayb sbb daku x pernah mcm ni dgn anda before dis kan. one thing you have to know, the more i care about sumone, the harder it is for me to express me. simply moi. jd, anda tau kan anda org penting. cheh. daku tibe2 geli. i know u're reading dis aishah, and uve been my silent reader yg mmg suke bace je n x suke comment. heh.

"dgn gue lu x pyh tipu la. org lain lu boleh la tipu"-aishah.
i know you know me well, n i cant hide anythin from you.
thanx for evrythin makciks. anda kekuatan daku tau?

last but not least, happy sweet 2oth bday makciks. how i wish i could celebrate wit you, and dpt menjalankan idea-idea kejam. heh. take care of dat lil teddy.


yang jauh di mata, shahira. ;)

birthday and birthday.

21 February 2009:
Location: Eastin Hotel.
happy bday mamito! had a great great time wit familia. aint no other. :D






7 February 2009:
Location: rumah no 31.
happy bday to my one and only roomie, raden. dis time, its a lil bit diff from the previous bday(s). we decided to make a simple, but sweet bday surprise rather than main kotor like we used to do. took us some time to think and we ended up wit dis. pnat jugak fikir utk sorg2 punye surprise, after one n another.






3 February 2009:
Location: Padang depan rumah fika+syida.
Happy bdayy to our so-called mummy, sarah.
A definetely unforgettable bday. we had soo much fun and main tak ingat dunia. lagi2, when it comes to game yg ntah pape-tapi fun-tapi susah woo-dann sgt memalukan. highlight of the day, berjaya pujuk n suap sarah mkn oreo yg berintikan kodomo lion. too bad lah kan. ;p
apabila PPG, GBS n GLB bersatu, make the perfect us. :)







29 January 2009:
Location: Bora Asmara.
Happy bday to my dearest kakak whos turning 25. a memorable one, i could say. unexpected nite, wit the live band performing n also clown. happy to see you happy. :D




same day,
Location: Red Box, mini playground unisel.
Happy bday to batch. Had a karaoke session wit the gurls, then we went to Unisel to fetch mimi then lepak then camwhoring, as usual. sgtt gembira pada hari itu. thanx kwn2.:))