goodbye.

they say, saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do.
and i say, i cant agree more.

i cant really remember, when was the last time i cried my heart out. like really really cried. its not even in my memory. until yesterday, when i sent mama, papa and ida off for umrah.
shame on me. adam pon cool je. i couldnt hold my tears when i hugged ida. they've not left yet, and all i knew i missed em already.

its not sumthin usual for me. selalunya bila hantar ma or pa or any of my family members for umrah, paling-paling pon my eyes became teary. i dont know what had taken into me this time. emotions were taking control all over me. its the time of the month i guess. boo shahira, boo. maybe this is the first time ida left me. she's the only one in the family who never leaves home and she's always been available for us, especially this manja sister of hers. and usually when ma n pa were not around, shes the one who took care of us, and the ketua keluarga in the family.
she's the closest elder sister of mine, who forever layan my kerenah, who always brings me out for jalan-jalan, and cook my favourite dishes. that explains this extraordinary emotional breakdown.

anyway, they have arrived safely. syukur Alhamdulillah. selamat menunaikan ibadah umrah ma, pa and ida. semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan di sana dan mendapat umrah mabrur, insyaAllah. i really really miss the three of u. i do. take care. love, adik.


on the other note, i'm currently missing my bestfriend dearly. can i atleast get a hug and have you temporary wit me, pretty please. just so you know, i love you!