the 'i' and the 'you' with 'they' in btwn.

especially to 'they'..

K.E,A,R,I,M,Q!! its been 2 years. 2 freaking years, 'they'! but 2 years don't bring any, even slight lil changes to the 'i' and the 'you' where 'they' always play the biggest role in between. how funny when the two freaking years dont seem to mean anything at all but only 24 months. and the 'i' came to realise that there's forever dragonfly in the tummy. and no matter how ridiculous it might sound, reality bites sumhow. however, the 'i' so need to get back into reality. of melodrama, bittersweet symphony~ at the end of the day, its the story between the 'i' and 'you'. =)

and the rest is history..

covalent bond.

my one and only mokna. =)

today, i realised my one and only baby sista who's always been pampered by her parents and siblings, who never got tired fullfilling all her wishes, high demand requests, cravings, etc and melayan kemanjaan baby girl yg sorang ni, who's even manja-er than the youngest in the family, adam, HAS FINALLY GROWN UP. my one and only nano, who's now getting mature, who has a clear vision of what she wants in her life, who has her own dreams to be fullfilled, and who wants to be independant, and stands on her own two feets, who no longer wants to be treated like a baby and who wants people around her to trust her own decisions in life. im proud of you, my dearest nano.

eventhough i'm miles away in ipoh, it's never easy for me to be separated from you. being the closest sis to me, the truth is its always hard for me to let you go. i still remember when you got the offer to further studies in boarding school, i was beyond words. yes, i was happy for you, but at the same, i never want you to leave me. it won't be the same without you, my dearest adik. and today, when you went to KTT, to continue with a-levels, again, im happy and proud of you. but its the feeling again and i hate it. i hate the fact that ur not at home anymo. if its hard for me, it must be even harder for those at home especially mama and adam. im gonna miss all the silly fights and quarrels you had with adam most of the time. and im glad im in ipoh cuz i dont think i can hold my tears inside, watching you leaving. i miss you already, lil sis. you're only in selangor, but i miss you this much already.tell me, how can i be miles away from you?

my baby boy and baby girl

its the emotional breakdown again. maybe because of the great and strong bond we have among us, the siblings. the same thing happened when ya left to further her studies in UNIMAS. maybe because ive been spending time with her for months before she left, and the next thing i knew, shes gonna leave me. its hard for me at first. i guess, its the matter of adapting and adjusting. at first, its gonna be awkward, and it takes me times to adjust and adapt myself. when one of them left, the loneliness starts to sink in. its never the same, and its never ever gonna be the same. because i simply love my family to bits and pieces. tell me who doesnt?

i guess im in the process of adapting. i have to. one day, they will leave. sooner or later, they will leave. people always leave. when my sisters get married, they gonna have their own families and they wont stay with us anymo. adam may be leaving for boarding school nx year, insyaAllah. and now, i'm missing each of you terribly.

mama,papa,yana,abg reza,dila,ida,ya,abe,nano,adam..
the complete Eleven.

rinduuu. =(((
*sigh*

my happy pills.


the three superheroes. <3

mama's daughters.

buah hati pengarang jantung

its all about eight.


the complete Eleven.

"father offers you advise like no other man can,
mother kisses you wounds that heal,
brothers will always be protective over you,
and sisters are forever supportive"

are you prepared enough?

i've been wanting to write a new post but since i was busy juggling myself with studies and due to the time factor, so yeah, i postponed. and i guess this is the rite time. this post is a reminder for myself, and for you out there, insyaAllah.

last sunday, while i was studying for EOM-BCS exam, which was on wednesday, i received a rather-shocking news. my housemate told me that one of our batchmates, MBBS 1B student met with a car accident and passed away. Ya Allah. i was like, "farah mane ni? awk sure ke? cuba confirm balik dgn org lain" within few minutes, the news were spread around so fast. facebook, msgs, and calls from our friends, and some of them were on their way to slim river where the accident took place. terdiam sekejap. i was trying so hard to digest everything in. couldnt believe it at first, tapi i accepted it later. ive just met her last friday, and now she's gone forever. innalillah. takdir Allah. sekelip mata je Allah boleh ambil apa yg Dia pinjamkan.

the following day, almost half of our batch went to penang to pay our last respect to Allahyarhamah. Alhamdulillah, sempat tgk jenazah and sempat solatkan jenazah, and baca yaasin. suasana sgt sayu masa tu. terimbau balik semua kenangan dgn arwah. semoga arwah pg menemui-Nya dengan tenang. jenazah dikebumikan di Baling Kedah. Alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan lancar, dan tahlil dijalankan rakan2 muslimat hr yang sama, and after exam.

honestly, were very much affected lepas arwah pg. terasa sgt kehilangannya walaupun we're not that close to her. in fact, exam kali ni rasa lain. terasa sayu sgt. lagi2 time exam, bila tgk kerusi sebelah kosong. tapi kami redha dgn pemergiannya Ya Allah. semoga dia ditempatkan bersama-sama orang2 yg beriman dan tenang di sisimu Ya Allah, insyaAllah.

to my dearest friend, farah diana, ill keep you in my heart forever and our memory remains forever, insyaAllah. our prayers will always be with you.

p/s: kt tak tau bila kt akan kembali kepada-Nya. ni mungkin masa dia, tapi masa kt? wallahu'alam. are we prepared enough for this?

i just cant imagine if dis happens to my loved ones. learn to appreciate ur loved ones while they're still around, because one day, they will be gone forever. each of us will return to Him. "trully to Allah we belong, and trully to Him shall we return. "

oleh itu, saya ingin mengambil kesempatan ini utk memohon seribu kemaafan kpd semua rakan-rakan sy dan org yg mengenali diri saya andai kata sy pernah melakukan sebarang kesalahan atau mengguris hati anda semua. sesungguhnya, sy hanya hamba Allah yg lemah penuh dgn kekhilafan. sama-sama la kt memaafkan, insyaAllah. =)

katakanlah, "sesungguhnya kematian yg kamu lari dari padanya, ia pasti menemui kamu, kemudian kamu akan dikembalikan kepada Allah, yang mengetahui yang ghaib dan yg nyata, lalu Dia beritakan kepadamu apa yang telah kamu kerjakan" (Al-jumu'ah:8)

"Dan Allah tidak akan menunda kematian seseorang waktu kematiannya telah datang. Dan Allah mahateliti terhadap apa yang kamu kerjakan" (Al-munafiqun:11)

Maka nikmat tuhan manakah yang kamu dustakan?