reminiscing the memories.

2007, Dewan Tunku Chanselor, Universiti Malaya(Orientation week);

"Hye, name awk ape? sy shahira, ni roomate sy"
with a pure innocent face, she smiled and replied, "sy aishah"
"awk duduk floor mane?"
"sy duduk tingkat 3, blook D"
"eh, samela kt, bilik no brape?" "307"


dats how it started. coincidentally, kt duduk satu floor kan? kt, 301, awk n mira, 307. then, since dat, start baik. pg lecture, mkn sume skali(dat time tak separate class lg). the day mira lost her hp which is a long story, remember makcik kerepek? we all got closer kan? as the time passed by, the real you revealed. mmg salah gle first impression towards awk? at least, not me alone yg fikir mcm tu kan? ahah. aishah, aishah.. definetely sumone who is very unique indeed, and unpredictable too. tp sbb perangai awk yg pelik tu lah yg lg bwat kt rapat. saying sumthin sweet to you is definetely pelik. being mushy wit you lagi laa tak. mcm geli kan? in fact, since kat pasum pon gune "daku anda", tak pon "wa, lu". tp dgn lu sorg je la mek. sbb lu satu2nye makhluk pelik yg wa pernah jumpe kat muka bumi ni. so, lets just proceed wit dis. wa dpt bygkan ur facial expression tatkala you read dis. mesti rase cam nak blasah wa kan, like u used to do back in pasum. tp too bad lah, lu jauh. ;p mek, sejak kt da terpisah antara 2 benua ni, da xde org melakukan keganasan terhadap wa, sbb lu xde. aman. tp kadang2 rindu gak. sbb lu sorg je suke bully wa mcm tu. kat pasum dulu pon, sume org kesian tgk wa asyik kene bully dgn lu, nasib kak emi suke back up wa. n nasib gak wa baikkk. heh. wa ingat lg dulu lu suke sgt cari gado dgn wa. wa pon x faham. tgk org lain mane ade lu bully. enggak fair dong. daku tidak faham anda.




you see, we've known each other only within short period of time. approximately a year. but it seems like i've known you since like forever. and the truth is, you're the only person who know me even more than i do. funny ay. mayb sbb first time in my life, i live wit sumone else, other than my very own family. even my subg friends yg dah knal for how many years pon, still don't discover many things about me. anda? sume baik buruk daku pon anda da tgk kan. heh. its simply because we lived together for a year. susah senang same2. jiwang lak daku. xpela, alang2 da jiwang, baik daku teruskan je.


i could still remember all those sweet and bitter moments we've gone thru together, i mean all of us back in pasum. but most of em were the sweet moments. but among all, you're the closest to me. sampai diorg pon panggil kembar. kembar x seiras, definetely but many similarities and the strong bond btwn us. di mane ade aishah, di situ ade shahira, or vice versa. heh. gado2 slalu pon, lu jugak yg wa cari. lu faham2 je wa kan. wa ingat lagi, lu balik2 class je, mesti jenguk bilik wa. and evrytime habis class sure akan msg ke, beli mknn skali, and wa mesti suro lu teman wa mkn. sbb lu tau wa mmg x bole mkn sorg2. pastu wa pon akan cite pape yg berlaku n lu dgr. walaupon lu suke membebel, tapi lu slalu dgr dgn sabar kalau wa membebel kan. pagi2 weekend mesti kt akan turun cafe bfast, dgn kak emi n yg lain. port lepak utama, tasik KK12. aaa. rinduu. pastu wa ingat lagi mase u were so into PP "F". wa pon same, tp x dasyat mcm lu la. pastu one fine nite, emo, duduk dkt balcony dgr lagu mltr. funny you. tp tu mase first sem. second sem da tak. kisah "riri' pulak. another hilarious, and never-ending story. kalau ingat balik, wa terharu sgt with ur full support and pengorbanan lu. lu x pernah bosan dgn cite2 wa, n lu lyn je kan. kalau mlm je, wa dgn lu slalu x keruan lah. mcm2. pastu mule lah, "aishah, jom teman kt turun jalan2 amik angin dkt bwh, kt mcm tgh x btol". lu pon slalu mcm tu gak. pastu mlm2 we both wandering around tanpa arah tuju, melayan perasaan masing2. daku ingat sume tu. kalau tgh hujan mlm2, wa lagi la. ape lg, aishahhh... eheh.



dulu wa kalau sakit, lu jugak yg detect dulu, sampai kadang2 wa x sedar pon wa x sihat or x okay. ingat lagi mase rubella, after balik2 dr surau solat subuh, lu dtg bilik wa, lu tgk wa lain mcm, lu terus dtg dkt wa. "shira,awk demam ke? muke awk nampak lain". "ehh, panas ni, sy rase awk demam la, x pyh pg class la hr ni" few hours later wa dtg bilik lu, wa ckp x sedap badan, muke wa da merah2 n bengkak. ingat lg lu ckp lps lecture pg tu, lu balik kolej nak teman wa pg clinic. lu risau mase tu. tu mase rubella. mase wa sakit 'aneh' yg first time detected dkt pasum pon, lu yg perasan dulu. muke wa mcm alien mase tu. mate merah2 sume. lu ingat wa nangis. tp tak. paling daku terharu, your sincerity towards me. and i know u cared. daku ingat lagi mcm mane anda jage daku mase daku sakit. sakit as in 'sakit'. anda tau kan? daku pernah cite dkt anda sorg je kwn pasum daku, until one day you and the rest witnessed it during sleepover at my place. since dat, anda slalu jage daku. if sumthin happened, you informed my family. and daku ingat lagi,dis one time, yg anda dgn daku tak okay for few days, lepas tu daku 'sakit'. they told me you were so worried abt me. daku balik rumah mase tu. balik2 tu, kakak daku ckp, "sweetnye aishah td". daku ingat, anda dtg baring sbelah daku dgn telekung anda, "shira, awk okay ke?" since dat, kalau daku nampak lain mcm je anda tanye okay ke x. anda slalu dtg bilik daku to check on me. there was dis one day, daku pernah ckp daku x sedap hati, and x boleh solat. anda dtg bilik daku, anda tanye, "nak sybacekan manzil utk awk?" seriously aishah, you're the sweetest thing.

kalau daku nak cite sume bende yg anda bwat utk daku, xkan habis. terlalu byk. n i'm too grateful knowing sumone like you in my life. u've changed me into a better person. byk daku blaja dr anda, n yg lain. sejak knal anda daku jd baik sikit. huhu. i learnt how to become a better muslimah, etc. sejak knal anda n mira jugak, br daku dgr n lyn nasyid. eheh. daku rindu sume kenangan. daku rindu nak solat jemaah dgn anda n yg lain, solat terawih same2, bukak puase n sume tu. byk sgt yg daku rindu. paling daku rindu, nak gado dgn anda mcm dulu. heh. u've always been there for me, aishah. always. mayb daku dulu x pernah ckp sumthin like dis to you. sbb daku dgn anda due2 pon ego kan. tp daku syg anda. habis2 pasum, anda la org paling daku rindu. dulu, anda slalu dgr cite daku. daku susah nak cite dkt org lain. anda tau sume bende psl daku. daku rase xde pon yg anda xtau. sume bende psl daku, and kisah lampau daku anda tau. anda ingat tak ade satu hari, daku teringat sgt sumone yg da lame gle x contact n lost contact, anda tlg daku. sbb anda la daku dpt contact dgn die till now. dulu daku ingat lg sume kwn daku mcm kwn anda. hp daku pon slalu dgn anda n mira. msg kwn daku anda yg reply. pasal Mr. H lagila, anda n mira mmg jobless. habis2 pasum, daku rase eneh. sbb anda da xde dgn daku. anda jauh. daku da xtau nak membebel dkt sape anda. sampai evryday kt msg n gayot kan. padahal daku bukan suke gayot pon anda. tp dgn anda, daku bole habiskan credit mcm tu je. rase mcm byk je bende nak cite dkt anda. daku happy lepas pasum daku dpt balik klantan, n stay rumah anda. last raye pon, daku sgt2 excited dpt jumpe anda kejap lepas terawih dkt kelantan. jodoh kt mmg kuat aishah. eheh.


skrg anda jauuhh. daku sedih. tp xpe, anda slalu dgn daku. sampai skrg pon anda slalu dgn daku. thanx anda. anda x pernah tinggalkan daku. walaupon anda dkt sabah n daku dkt ipoh, tp kt still rapat mcm dulu. jumpe je tak. kisah daku dr daku awl2 dtg ipoh sampai la skrg anda tau. and dgn anda je daku bole gayot for few hours utk membebel. sbb anda je yg btol2 faham daku, and sume yg daku lalui selame ni. daku tau, daku da xkan jumpe another you in the future. u're too precious to me. daku tau anda mesti tak sangke daku bole ckp mcm ni. mayb sbb daku x pernah mcm ni dgn anda before dis kan. one thing you have to know, the more i care about sumone, the harder it is for me to express me. simply moi. jd, anda tau kan anda org penting. cheh. daku tibe2 geli. i know u're reading dis aishah, and uve been my silent reader yg mmg suke bace je n x suke comment. heh.

"dgn gue lu x pyh tipu la. org lain lu boleh la tipu"-aishah.
i know you know me well, n i cant hide anythin from you.
thanx for evrythin makciks. anda kekuatan daku tau?

last but not least, happy sweet 2oth bday makciks. how i wish i could celebrate wit you, and dpt menjalankan idea-idea kejam. heh. take care of dat lil teddy.


yang jauh di mata, shahira. ;)

birthday and birthday.

21 February 2009:
Location: Eastin Hotel.
happy bday mamito! had a great great time wit familia. aint no other. :D






7 February 2009:
Location: rumah no 31.
happy bday to my one and only roomie, raden. dis time, its a lil bit diff from the previous bday(s). we decided to make a simple, but sweet bday surprise rather than main kotor like we used to do. took us some time to think and we ended up wit dis. pnat jugak fikir utk sorg2 punye surprise, after one n another.






3 February 2009:
Location: Padang depan rumah fika+syida.
Happy bdayy to our so-called mummy, sarah.
A definetely unforgettable bday. we had soo much fun and main tak ingat dunia. lagi2, when it comes to game yg ntah pape-tapi fun-tapi susah woo-dann sgt memalukan. highlight of the day, berjaya pujuk n suap sarah mkn oreo yg berintikan kodomo lion. too bad lah kan. ;p
apabila PPG, GBS n GLB bersatu, make the perfect us. :)







29 January 2009:
Location: Bora Asmara.
Happy bday to my dearest kakak whos turning 25. a memorable one, i could say. unexpected nite, wit the live band performing n also clown. happy to see you happy. :D




same day,
Location: Red Box, mini playground unisel.
Happy bday to batch. Had a karaoke session wit the gurls, then we went to Unisel to fetch mimi then lepak then camwhoring, as usual. sgtt gembira pada hari itu. thanx kwn2.:))

selamat ulang tahun, mama.

happy birthday mama.

you were my strength when i was weak,
you were my voice when I couldn't speak,
you were my eyes when I couldn't see,
you saw the best there was in me,
lifted me up when I couldn't reach,
you gave me faith cause you believed,
I'm everything I am,
Because you loved me.

"mama sayang adik muco muco, byk2 mcm bintang, bulan, gunung n matahari. jaga diri ok.
luv u"

adik sygggg mama lagi banyak dan banyak dan banyakk lagi.
love u ma, always. <33

update.

1.45 a.m: finally, safely arrived home sweet home.

3.18 a.m: rasa aneh, dan janggal. its been a whilee kann. wanted to update my blog, tapi kesibukan melanda. sorry to those people, that ive been ignoring for the past few weeks, without any intention. maaf kalau rase terabai. tidak sengaja. bukan purposely tak reply msgs n such, but there were some reasons needless to b mentioned here.
my life has been a roller-coster ride for the past weeks, yet im still living a happy life. thank god.

enough of dat. siapa rindu sy? angkat tgn. heh. tauu ramai. bukan perasan, but i have prove tauu. ;p (na, ur one of them kan?) crappy moi. br habis CVS exam, mcm ni lah gayanya. heh.

sy adaaa banyakkk benda nak ckp. nak bgtauu. bykk sgtt. n dats the prob when u have so many things to tell, u dunt even know how to start it. problematic. paling penting anda, im homeeeeee. super duper gembira. in fact, dah berapa hari mcm teringat rumah. mcm memanggil-memanggil. ini bukan homesick. because im not the homesick type. trust me. cuma rinduuuu ma n pa. n nano n adam. my lil babies. ye lah, tak jumpe lg since balik umrah. :((

i want to update the bday(s) of the month, tapi tunggu bday ma dulu. mama's bday coming up real soon. yeayness. and we might go to pd or another unknown place dis weekend, either one. tak kisah. yg penting, complete set of us. bilangan ahli keluarga cukup, check-mate. perfecto. =)

will update more later yea? i shud get some sleep. tak cukup tido sbenarnye. mentally and physically tired.

awk suka saya tapi saya suka dia, tapi dia tak suka saya, jadi saya suka awk balik.
dia suka saya tapi saya tak suka dia, tapi awk ada, tapi saya tak tau.

some crappy stuff. nytey nite. sleep tight.

Love Letters Compilation.

i believe, sumthin is not right.

my very own theraphy

When we want to talk to ALLAH,we pray and say prayers.
When we want to hear ALLAH talk to us, we read The Holy Al-Qur'an,
God's Love Letters Compilation is the best balm, given at any time.

Verily in the remembrance of ALLAH do hearts find rest.


O' Allah, I need you.