The journey.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

“To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return.” (Al Baqarah:156)

I am a traveler, on a journey planned by my Rabb.

and I'm still searching for the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm desperately in need of guidance. but deep down, I know Allah is there, always. My creator, and to Him I shall return.

Sungguh, pencarian itu memerlukan kesabaran. dan perjalanan mencari tuhan itu bukan mudah.

" Many of us lost God in our lives, but we claimed we're still alive"- Yasmin Mogahed.
Ironic,isnt it? Truth hurts, and reality bites. Nauzubillah.

Sungguh, titik permulaan mengenali tuhan itu  penuh cabaran dan ranjau, tapi hati-hati yang telus, ikhlas dan lunak hanya keranaNya akan menemui apa yg dicari, dgn izinNya.

I need a turning point of my life, for the better me, before its too late. The preparation to meet my Rabb. Nothing is too late except death.

"the man who decided to change on the 12th hour dies on the 11th"- Hlovate

 Its too deep, and it strikes me.


Hati manusia tu Allah yang pegang. dan Allah juga mampu membolak-balikkan hati manusia sekelip mata atas kehendakNya.


" Ya Allah, kau peganglah hati ini, jangan pernah sekali kau lepaskannya, dan dekatkanlah hati ini dgnMu, jadikanlah hati ini hati yg sentiasa mengingatiMu dan tidak sekali-kali melupakanMu"
I always need You.

Sungguh, pencarian itu terasa indah dan manis, penuh makna bila dilalui bersama-sama insan tersayang, sama-sama meraih kecintaan Sang Pencipta. Nikmat yg tak ternilai harganya.

I want to be in Jannah with people that I love. None of them to be left out. Together, forever in Jannah.
Only and only if you know, especially my family and my close friends. My muslim brother and sisters, and simply everyone.

Patience and sacrifices are all you need. I will, insyaAllah. 

Sungguh, da'wah itu bukan mudah.


Luahan hati,
hamba Allah yang khilaf.

Twenty second.

8th of May, 2012.
Alhamdulillah, another chance to breathe, another year to live,another opportunity to experience life, in different perspectives, views, and thoughts.

Alhamdulillah for your never ending blessings, Ya Allah.

Thank you, for all these loveliness. Thank you for being wonderful, people. I'm trully blessed.

May Allah bless.

=)

Lunch treat and choc indulgence from azi & ain.

Another surprise from my dearest Ummu Sulaym sisters.  :)

:)

Family dinner.  :)

Thank you for dropping by and for this cake, desh. :)

:)

Ummu Sulaym sisters, with missing numbers.

Made with love. Thank you farahin n shifaa. :)

Another surprise from beloved housemates. nadira was missing.

My inner strenght, my spinal cord. :)

Kuala Gula

 2 weeks of our Field Residential Programme, district posting. Beautiful memories, that will never be forgotten. Great time with awesome groupmates! ;)

Overdose.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim and Assalamualaikum.

This post is pretty much on my current updates, and a lil bit of updates of the outdated stuff. ;p

1) Ended orthopaedic posting 2 weeks ago, and had my clinical exam in Taiping, while the rest of the papers and viva in Ipoh. Alhamdulillah, everythin went smoothly especially short case in Taiping. One thing for sure, Ill be missing orthopaedic especially 2 weeks we had in Taiping. Everything was just simply awesome. :) I never liked orthopaedic before, couldnt even remember what I learnt during phase 2 and 3A, but its like a huge turning point from 0 to 360 degrees this time when I started to gain interest from the very beginning of this posting till the end of it. Orthopaedic isnt that bad afterall, aint it? ;p

Last day of Orthopaedic posting in Taiping.

2) Overdosed with public health posting, and Its only the 2nd week of public health posting. Mentally and physically tired especially when we have to hear 7 lectures on different topics everyday plus tutorials. Thats a total killer. Brain freeze. Public health used to be an alien to me, during my preclinical years, and still am to me. in the process of adapting. cant wait to end this week, and start our Field Residential Programme next week. The only 2 things im exited bout this posting is because of the FRP as we are required to go to district areas for 2 weeks, and organise health services, health campaigns, special study and specific research to be conducted and another thing is when this posting involves the whole batch at the same period of time. the only posting that gathers us. :) Our group gonna be posted to Kerian. Hopefully everythin goes well, insyaAllah. :)

Public health assignments. zzz

Group dicussion during tutorial.

3) Time management is a big problem for me. Hafta use every single minute wisely due to our packed schedule. During this first 2 weeks, we have to find time to conduct meetings, and tonnes of workload need to be done before we go to allocated places this weekend for our FRP.

Our batch has decided to start planning for our graduation dinner, and dinner commitee has been formed. Ive been given the responsibility to be one of the comittee members, and we already had our first meeting yesterday, so here comes another commitment. Other than that, my partner n I planned to start our research as soon as possible, although its supposed to be carried out during our last posting, sumwhere in July. Another thing is, my study group and also usrah. Time is precious,and hopefully manage to use it wisely and get benefits from each of it. nawaitu itu penting. :)

So,thats about it.
Cant believe we have less than a year as a medical student, still cant imagine myself being a doctor.

n oh, Happy belated birthday to my dearest study groupmates: noy, mel and naqib. May Allah bless you! :)

140312

Awak.

Dear Future Husband ♥



I don’t want to be your girlfriend. I just want to be the one you call your wife. Your presence will give me happiness. You’ll be my halal prince charming. Riding your horse of Taqwa. Holding onto the Quran in your right hand and the Sunnah in your left. I hear you’re worth the wait, so I'll wait Insha’Allah.

My heart belongs to no one But ALLAH , I just thought I should let you know.

...

So please stay still and stand by me.
Even on the darkest of days.

Bulatan Gembira.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for giving me another chance to live for another day.

and thank you Allah, for sending me these beautiful people. I'm glad to be part of this 'Bulatan Gembira'.

O'Allah,Take us in the best way,Guide us every single day, and please Keep us close to You,until the end of time. Amin

teringat kata-kata kak wani:
"kepada akhawat2 yg disayangi, saya nak kita semua sama-sama berpimpin tangan dan berusaha untuk mencapai jannahNya, insyaAllah"

teringat jugak pesanan kak farah, yg pernah jadi my naqibah:
"teruskan budaya usrah, sbb usrah tu antara medium utk kt mendekatkan diri dgnNya, nanti bila dah kerja belum tentu ada peluang utk semua ni"

InsyaAllah, will keep that in my mind and my heart, always.
So lets hold our hands together, to achieve Jannah. :)

Semakin jauh ku dari-Mu
Semakin dekat pula Kau menghampiri daku
Oh, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih
Siapalah diriku di pandangan-Mu

Semakin cuba ku dekati
Semakin kuat pula Kau mendugai aku
Oh, Tuhan Yang Maha Sempurna
Kerdilnya diriku di hadapan-Mu

The cure of pain.

My very own version of love letter.

The most beautiful theraphy, the words of Allah. and nothing beats that.


Dear Shahira, La Tahzan. cuz Allah is the cure of all pain.

"Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest (Qur'an 13:28)

Therefore remember Me, and I will remember you (Qur'an 2:152)

another beautiful theraphy.

my lullaby.