sunshine

today's weather's forecast:

i'm feeling much better than yesterday, and i guess i started to adapt myself.
had a meet up session with my studygroup mates regarding some matters and it feels so good to be able to gather up the 8 of us again. guess i'm so used to have them around, that it feels so weird when we are not able to see each other that often.

semua posting lain kann. and semua pon sgt busy. susah dah nak jumpa. akan rindu! 2 hari pon dah rindu. am i being too mushy here?

korang korang semua, saya sgt gembira dapat jumpa korang tadi. betul, tak tipu. thank you desh, for the short trip tadi. and it was raining heavily. walaupun kejap, terasa sgt sweet. and thanx muadz terpaksa layan ktorg. we're family, afterall kan? ;p
saya tau saya terlebih gula hari ni. finee.

Sadesvaran Muniandy

Had a short trip wit OSG mates from Coll to UO then to Masjid Parking. Looking forward for the next trip. Thanx to Mr Heavy Rain - Aseerah Ahmad, Shahira Anuar, Rd Ai'nulkhair and Muadz Mohtar and Mealiella Omar.

• Rd Ai'nulkhair what is OSG? nway sorry susahkan desh! huhu.THANX A BILLION! :)
• Shahira Anuar omg desh. i was just about to post sumthin like this. korang so chomel lah. tak kisahla short trip pon, still had a great time. thank youuu desh! :)

  
  
• Sadesvaran Muniandy hahahaha..
  

  kite kan satu kepala, mesti lar tindakan pun lebih kurang sama
  hehehe
• Aseerah Ahmad hahaha tu la! cant wait for the taiping trip! ^ ^

and it's never a coincicident. I was reading God's Love letter where i found this. nothing beats the power of ur love, O'Allah. thank you Allah, for making me smile again. :))

"Allah lah yg mengirimkan angin, lalu angin itu menggerakkan awan, dan Allah membentangkannya di langit menurut yg Dia kehendaki, dan menjadikannya bergumpal-gumpal, lalu engkau lihat hujan keluar dari celah-celahnya, maka apabila Dia menurunkannya kepada hamba-Nya yang dia kehendaki tiba-tiba mereka bergembira, padahal walaupun sebelum hujan diturunkan kepada mereka, mereka benar-benar telah berputus asa-
Ar-Rum:48-49

"Allah lah yg menciptakan kamu dari keadaan lemah, kemudian Dia menjadikan kamu setelah keadaan lemah itu menjadi kuat-Ar-Rum:54)

amazing kan? subhanallah. I love you Allah, always. :)

dyspnea

Its only the second day of phase 3A, but everyone's complaining about their postings. guess it was a bad day for most of us, and im pretty sure we shared the same feelings equally on our very first day of 3a. kejutan budaya mungkin. i gotta admit i was a bit down yesterday, and its due to multifactorial causes. everything has changed drastically, and turning to the point of 360 degrees from nil.

we're all suffocating, arent we? baru 2 hari tapi dah terasa susah nak bernafas.

"its only the first day of 3A, but i feel so stressed, 3A is so stressful"
" korang pernah terasa nak quit medic tak?"

those were few lines from my friends.

pastu gerun tgk seniors 3A. they are in the midst of their final btw. semua muka sgt stress dan tak okay. heard both papers were really tough.
pastu status facebook semua org pon sgt depressing. our batch stress masuk 3A yg super busy, while seniors stress exam yg sgt susah. konklusi, semua stress. and its soo depressing i tell you.

lets take a deep breath. its the process of adapting. i'm sure everythings gonna be fine, sooner or later. kt semua kena kuat.

tapi sy pon tatau kenapa terasa sgt lemah semalam. penat dah pujuk diri sendiri. its the time of the month i guess.

"Your family won't change, your friends won't change, people around you won't change, but its you who need to change yourself in order to survive."

one of my friends said this to me yesterday. and i gave myself a deep thought of it. its true kan? :)

horizontally vertical.

Alhamdulillah.

Final was over. results were out, and i could finally breathe again. all praises to Allah, it was way beyond my expectations, and yes, i was out of words. its the greatest feeling ever to see your parents smiling widely, and to make ur siblings proud of you. its like a rainbow day for me. i guess all the hardwork finally paid off. berkat study dalam jemaah dan yg paling penting, rezeki Allah bagi. semua ni milik DIA, insyaAllah sbg pemangkin masa depan. :)

thank you everyone for the prayers.

and and the climax of the story is all of us passed this exam. together we created a history, and we shall remain this in the future, insyaAllah. lets say NO to supplement. seronok dapat masuk phase 3a dgn semua. :D




i have a confession to make. if any of you happen to read this post, (mel, tira, raden, iylman, naqib, desh, muadz) just wanna let you know that you guys are awesome and the best of the best. i'm so happy to be part of this study group. syg korang sgt2 lah. thank you(s) for everything. hanya Allah yg dapat balas jasa korang. and i had great time with you guys, and paling penting tak rasa sekelumit stress pon dgn korang.
congratulations on passing guys. remember our plan after exam? am really looking forward to it :))

and oh, thank you to my subang friends for ur never-ending support and prayers. you know who you are kan? sangat terharu n syg korang semua. you guys are very much appreciated, and totally missed. :) :(
please stick with me, and stand by me thru out my journey sbb korang semua adalah pemangkin sy.

this is specially for u maliq: thank you sbb selalu bg semangat, and layan stress kt, semua pre and post exam syndromes dari zaman pasum, sampai lah sekarang. sorry sbb selalu cari awk. please dont ever get tired of me okayy? ill always treasure that. :D


its sunday and tomorrow is monday. its the monday blues again. blergh. mungkin sbb cuti kejap sgt.
so, say Hello to Monday, and please treat me good.

the most important thing is, Hello Phase 3A, and my new groupmates, Goodbye Phase 2. its gonna be a tough road ahead, im pretty sure. good luck semua!
goodnight.

Dear Allah,

I guess i'm too tired. but i know i wont give up. it will never happen. ill fight till the very end. its the final lap, and all i have to do is keep on running steadily,carefully. I need strength from u, O'Allah, as i'm only a humble servant of yours.

I know u always listen. please be with me in every steps that i take. and i always need YOU the most.

its not wrong to feel tired sometimes kan?
its almost there shahira. tomorrow is the day. you gonna win the battle, insyaAllah.
good luck to phase 2 students!

"Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side"

courtesy of incik naqib.

“Ya Haiyyum, Ya Qayyum, dengan rahmatMu daku memohon pertolongan. Baikilah seluruh urusanku, dan janganlah Engkau serahkan diriku ini kepadaku walaupun sekelip mata”

"Wahai Tuhanku, lapangkanlah bagiku, dadaku; "Dan mudahkanlah bagiku, tugasku; "Dan lepaskanlah simpulan dari lidahku, "Supaya mereka faham perkataanku"

(Taha : 25,26,27)

hello,
can you hear me?
am i gettin through to you?

guess u've been gone for too long.

A Gritos de Esperanza

while studying silently, at the very same spot, in front of the window, staring at the night dark sky,
with the breeze of cold air, and its a raw drizzling rain outside.

and i just cant help myself from being distracted for a while.

*5 minutes break.

rinduuu. hmm. =(




i need a break. not exactly a break. but a perfect get away instead. mind me, its the pre-exam syndrome again. BUT but, even "drugs need a holiday"-quoting Dr. Sabitha. only if you get what i mean.

okay dah. get back to study. please stay focus.

you.

dear you(you know who you are),

terima kasih anda,
simpy for everthing.
thank you for listening patiently without hesitations,
thank you for always making me feel better,
thank you cuz you never failed to be there for me,
thank you for those advises that i would always treasure.
thank you for always being understanding.
and thank you for being just you.

just wanna let u know, that ure very much appreciated.
now that ive spilled it out, guess i'm feeling much better.

sorry for the troubles, and hopefully ull never get tired of me.

terima kasih anda, you made my day. =)